aquablueygal

2010-01-03T01:38:00.002+08:00

It feels hurting when those words of pique came from all the quarreling
I thought I could hold back my tears, but I just could not.
Probably I could never enter his world and understand how he actually feels inside
Probably I was part of the mix of the hidden anger inside him, because of my selfishness.

I can never understand and imagine the negativity and thoughts that are running through his mind
he might have hated me from the start, or halfway through when I converted to become a Christian and yet still treated him badly/selfishly (or in other sense bullied him)

Once in a while, when we quarreled, he will reveal bits and pieces of his hidden anger, but definitely there is more than it meets the eye.
I really wished he did not mean what he said in those words of pique, because it is going to bring hurts, more than just to me, but also to the people who have loved him dearly.

Probably the concept of love is just too abstract for him(or even me) to understand, but for sure today's first sermon of 2010 has definitely taught me that by making a one time off kind of prayer will surely not wake God up from His sleep to even think that I was serious about my prayer.

I am not sure how long this journey is going to take for me to keep persisting till I see the promise comes to past, where my whole household will be saved. But definitely, I want to stay alive to see that day come to past rather than going up to heaven and realize that none of my loved ones are there with me.

But I thank God for this quarrel because I got the BOLDNESS to tell him
"Even if you are going to hate my religion and become an atheist because of me, then all the more I will pray till you become a Christian"
and I ended with telling him
"Probably there will be some people who are going to hate you, some who might hate you or some who will not hate you, but regardless, the most important thing is that Jesus died on the cross for you and God loves you more than you can ever imagine."

Thank you Daddy, cause I know You're real and You live in me.

With love,
Gladys

2009-12-17T21:42:00.004+08:00

Been so long since I've blogged. and Mr Keith, my dear brother has super duper uber randomly popped by my blog to see my last post on the random rant on ISP. yes, I did enjoyed it very much if you're reading this brother(: so you know what to do for WISP next year okayyy~ :D

YI Camp 09 was really great. The theme was 'DEEPER' and indeed the lyrics of the song 'Deeper' keeps resounding in my mind. Ps Glyn's sermon was really a blast(like usual) and thank God for him and a blessing like him. but most importantly God was there at the camp through it all.
A new vision to kick off 2010. Something I still need to seek God more to confirm that I am right in it cause it was really blurred(but I shared it during debrief anyway)

I really hope that I will not let the passion and fire just die off after the camp, but rather keep it fueled throughout the year as I engage on a new year ahead. And each time of this year, needless to say the phrase 'Time flies' always comes to mind. It's Christmas coming round the corner again, and when I see people getting big bags of gifts, it really reminded me of the warmth and love that Christmas brings each time.

But not forgetting what is the true purpose of Christmas, it was His love and warmth that first surrounded us for us to bring it to our friends and families. Continue knocking and knocking till the door is open, cause ask and it shall be given.

Also, not forgetting those that have been kind of forgotten by the society, the aged, poor and disabled, I thought it would be a good time to visit the home to remind them that they are not forgotten and Christmas is for them as well. Find a time to go (:

Merry X'mas and Happy 2010 in advance to all!

Happy transition from 2009 to 2010 :D

♥gladystan

2009-11-15T19:30:00.004+08:00

girls always have that thought of constantly having that male figure in our lives that is always assuring us that we are beautiful, we are being loved and everything that just makes our day.

probably in the past, I have found the wrong people to give me assurance. I admit that. but now I understand that when it comes to relationships, I always had never allowed God to have His say, but I am always the one taking control when I know that He knows the best not me.

so I have to learn when I have to allow Him to take control, and that is every moment of my life. but when I say God has His timing, do I still grumble and say "Are you sure God? I have been waiting long enough, do you understand?"

God is the best, knows best and gives the best. but how a times am I assured of this fact and believe in this and have faith in it.

Proverbs 3:5-6.

random rant: i really enjoyed and is still enjoying ISP lessons, fridays with keith! :D but I can't believe that 5 weeks can pass by so quickly and next week is the last!! *roars* thought of it just makes me go boomz. -.-

♥gladystan

2009-10-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

been already almost the 6th week i have been in wuhan
really happy this whole period of time
minus the fact that i got scolded because i spent too much money here
despite everything being relatively cheap

going home next tuesday!
mixed feelings running inside me
can't exactly describe how i feel about leaving wuhan
especially since this is like the 1st time i have stayed overseas in a place for so long
which is 6 wks is rather long, agree?

missing my family, my mummy esp! ):
awww. this home sick feeling came just at the right time!

important thing now is to only get what i need
not what i want
cause i am seriously short on cash):):

heard that the cambodia mission trippers are back tomorrow
and pastor has got his surmon ready as posted on twitter
haiz. another awesome service i am gonna miss):

anw. just shopping and more shopping till i fly home on tues
missing singapore so much
be back soon
off to games(:

loved-

2009-09-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

thanks to technology advances. blogger is banned in china, yes it is.
but say hoorays to VPN cause you get to access anything and everything
just like in singapore.

so yup, been long since I've blogged and I doubt any reads anyway
everyone's been looking busy this whole holidays.
working working, some slacking slacking

adapted well enough in Wuhan already
shan't post the photos cause there is simply tons of them
uploading is such a chore to me now
cause I don't even get enough sleep everyday so to speak
though I know it's quite okay, like 6 hours a day?

but I still feel so sleepy despite all, probably due to the everyday math lessons
that's driving me nuts
to complete this whole discrete math thing within 6 weeks sounds totally mission impossible

new people, new experience, new environment, new culture
but never regretted getting on this trip
at least to say my living conditions aren't that bad,
learn how to train my tolerance level
especially with the toilets here(:
and all the washing of clothes. my goodness. I thank God for inventions like washing machine.

really learn to put myself down to another level of living.
like eating from roadside stalls, which many thought as cannot make it
but has become my daily dinner
because the school canteen food is worse off
also learn how hard it is to be living overseas alone and studying
can't imagine if I have to study overseas also
probably even getting out of my comfort zone is already a difficult step to begin with

but still, i miss singapore
everything about it
never got out of town for this long
3rd week passing by
wonder how church and cell group has been
the people, the happenings and all

and the worst thing is my mum doesn't even call me
till I sms my brother to ask them to call
am i to be to over independent? that they can rest their minds about me?
haha. i don't know, just probably.
but I am indeed well off living here
nothing much to worry about

can catch my life and reflections here in Wuhan @ http://gtjy.livejournal.com
though it was a blog created for my school submissions
cause we are supposedly to be writing and reflecting upon events
so forgive me if it doesn't sound like a ranting blog post
like i am doing here
cause that is for my lecturer's viewing
so can't be too gaga blogging about it

and i realised i can indeed survive without facebook and twitter
cause sleep is like the most important thing
so nights people! :D

-missing everything-

2009-09-02T01:52:00.000+08:00

it's 0152hrs in the morning.
catching a flight 0800hrs.
have to reach the airport by 0530hrs
guess i am not getting any glimpse of a sleep

saying goodbye to singapore
and probably a break to blogger as well
since it is banned there
probably get a wordpress to rant
or probably just keep it at twitter.com ♥

it's time to embrace the chinese culture baby!
hopefully everything will turn out well there.
study hard there gladys! (:

had a meeting with brx today
really made me gave some thoughts to my responsibilities in various areas

had jap marche with poly mates
awesome food!
had spicy ramen, bamboo rice, rosti with curry and mango ice for dessert
definitely feeling sinful after that lunch
but should check that place out
so much better than the western marche(:
at suntec city mall basement!

went for tues prayer meeting
really awesome
joys handed me an album from hillsongs given by the cellgroup
thanks people!
and had much laughter with sunil when walking to the bus stop
as usual because of his style of speaking.

i am gonna miss the people, food and places here
singapore singapore i ♥ you lar!

wanna come back stronger and better
with God all things are possible!

gonna miss you all people like mad crazy((((:

with ♥♥♥♥♥♥,
gladys

2009-08-26T02:14:00.003+08:00

no it's not
no i don't wish for it to be
tell me, someone
tell me that it's not what i perceive it to be

it's a cycle,
it feels the same
it is getting a little too similar like the past experiences

exams freaking out my mind.
another 2 more to go
and i posted it as my FB status
and got all sorts of funny comments
it's amusing and amazing
how wonderful is this creation called FACEBOOK
kudos to Mark Zuckerberg and friends

and boos to me because I am going to be deprived of
this wonderful creation for the 6 weeks in china
gonna find some VPN to get out of this agony
if not it will be a lifeless time there.
ok, i think it's the books that's causing the random ranting

back to the books, till then. ♥

2009-08-21T01:11:00.002+08:00

today's 明星志工队 featured cambodia. and the volunteers were alan tern and priscilla chan. the newly wed couple.

some of the people there did not have a state of their own, they live on the waters, and their future generations will suffer the same fate as they do.

this girl wanted to be a doctor, but couldn't afford it because she did not even have an identity.

poor as they are, little education, no skills, hardly much food to get by each day. earning just enough keep to live by each day.

dreams, what a big word to them.
like every child, they have a dream
the only difference is that they won't be able to see even a glimpse of it coming to past.

the priceless expression those kids had when they received a set of second hand clothes from the volunteers. those mothers who were laughing from grin to grin when they see their children having new clothes.

the gratitude they expressed when they were served simple meals.
the ability to be able to build a house on your own.
the experience of teaching those kids simple english.

i want to be part of all these experiences as well.

i really wish i could do a little something. rather than just tearing every episode i watch, when i see what is happening in the world out there.

getting a little too emotional):
but it's really a burden upon my heart.

pray that they will lead better lives, stay happy and have hope!

and what is my cause? i want to do something positive for somebody in my world..

2009-08-17T01:28:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NG NUOSHI! (:

dedicating this post to laohuang nuoshi(:
it's finally someone else's turn to be 18 and called old.

been knowing this blur girl since secondary one.
thank God that I knew her though all these years
her habits and all never seemed to change
thats why she calls me the boss! *yeah*

been thru those days of taking bus together in the mornings,
having maths tuition at my house with thomas,
always being the "favourite" student of mr quek
trying to keep you awake every time you fall asleep in class
talking rubbish with you on the phone for hours
trying to talk you through all your thinkings which you seemed to always be entangled in

so much of these memories that i can't possibly list them all out
but i really enjoy all these with you
how you always happily be the organiser for like whatever events(:

now in poly, hope you continue to keep up your GPA, but minus the stress luh!
and enjoy your life guards! continue scoring your positions and medals ok :D
JIAYOU**

it's your day lao huang, keep away all your sadness
and take in all the happiness girl!
God bless you in all you do,
remember to keep relying on Him yeah! (:

see you in a few hours!
i realised blogger has some problems, so i can't upload your "beautiful' photo here! ):

love you as I always do,
your boss!

2009-07-08T00:27:00.009+08:00

been busy doing my integrated assignments
have to complete by this weekend!

common test results all back.
crappy results, expected.
cause i did not study for it
must chiong for exams upcoming! ):

and need to source for shan's present
i need ideas!!! dunno what to get her!
asking khoon to source together.

today stayed back in sch to do some work with kim and vic
saw eugene in his sports attire, looks super weird la.
cause usually see him in his formal wear and stuff.
but well, seems like he does work out regularly based on his build.
he actually runs home from bukit batok! (after one whole day of work)
*salutes*

time seems to run past this semester.
*cross fingers*

and and and not forgetting the most important thing of this post(:
is to showcase my new love
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.
.
.
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Z-CHEN!

went for his campus concert @ NP.
and wow wow
i'm amazed by him though
and yes yes, my daily routine now includes visiting his blog, facebook related and webpages and sites related to him(:
but he won't be returning to singapore soon
so can only have his updates via facebook and blog
oh wells. i enjoyed his music!
if you are interested get his cd from me ok! haha :D
more than willing to share good music with you guys.

loved. till next time;

2009-06-24T17:50:00.004+08:00

I've been taught never to disclose too personal stuff on the net
because anyone and everyone can have access to your information

nothing.basically nothing
can be hidden from anyone on the Net
aren't this whole Internet thing vulnerable
yet people pour out all their hearts into it
blogs, community websites what nots

this is the flaw of technology.

even if you try to use terms like "you" to cover up for whoever you intended it to be
making people crack their brains out just to guess who the heck were you referring to
come on, that was me as well years ago

but when I look back at kids nowadays
I really wonder if they knew
what resilience is all about
and how childish they could be
grow up won't you?

this is the world,
too bad if you are hurt
and this is the world,
you have to learn how to take stress, my dear kid.
it aren't easy
but you learn as you go

this is the world we are living in
not too late to realise
not too early to adapt

2009-06-21T23:49:00.002+08:00

been pondering over certain facts in life.
looked through some of the girls' blogs
and they reminded me of who I was when I was a secondary school go-er
some posts grumbling about how school sucked totally
and other grumbling about the small things in life that we never manage to find satisfaction in

and thinking back, I thought to myself, isn't that me?
just looking through a piece of mirror
and seeing who I was back then.

been encouraged by Cleo's recent blog post
about how people becomes Jesus' freaks
and being martyr of our faith
and i could never put myself in those shoes

at one moment when we were counting down to 2009
and here I am standing at the mid point of the year
wondering what have I achieve till date?

sometimes it might be good to be a thinker
not too deep
just enough to keep me going
and learning to count how much God has done in my life...

Jesus take the wheel,
direct my life
cause I know I can't handle this on my own

2009-06-19T15:17:00.002+08:00

changed blogskin cause it's has been too long

celebrated dara's birthday yesterday
had chicken,pizza and drinks
good food, good chat, good catch up with the girls
been long since.

talked on the phone till 3am.
woke up just before noon.

this is holidays.
walking at a slower pace of life
but still the same rhythm plays every single day

bring me on a runaway

2009-05-13T00:41:00.002+08:00

been long since i updated.
wonders who else reads blog nowadays
or at least my blog
now that facebook is already the dominating web
everyone visits.

(:
a teenager turns 20 today.
leaving his teenage-hood
poor guy
old man already
MR ALAN CHOO(:
beloved friend since my primary school years<3
HAPPY 20TH BUDDY!

went for ICT graduation 2009 as usher today
made me have the feeling to wanna graduate like so soon
but thinking again like I'm only in year 2):
oh wells, at least I get to enjoy the company of my mates more(:

nothing much in school happening,
just perhaps more assignments coming along the way
brothers having exams but ending soon
valueventures due to complete asap
Shiyun's birthday on friday
.
.
.
.

let's see let's see
and the list goes on in my daily life

been overwhelmed by feelings
silly thoughts
thoughts that I myself find ridiculous
just to even think about them
don't even know how to describe this feeling
but just one crappy word to summarize all ):

because my Daddy is far away from my life
far far away
this I know
because of the way I am feeling what I am feeling

2009-04-07T03:17:00.003+08:00

it's like 3.17 in the morning. aren't sleeping!?

am glad that my dear ah hong is back from china!
felt that she's kinda down
so i din wanna ask her also what bothered her so much.

missed allyson lin! (felt kinda weird to call her this)
i should say i MISSED LINYUZHEN! :D
go back taiwan also never say
but I should have guessed as much
come back soon ok my sista!!
i'm still missing you!

missed TAN LI KHOON also!
been long since I've seen her
think she's busy with her attachment and everything! arghs):
let me see you soon also!!!

just blog hopped a little

lucks to shan for her new attachment starting!
MS NEW STAFF NURSE
bet she got loads of complains after a while
but guess she's also tire out by all the work load
jiayou ok! :D

today's quiet time I read about not letting emotions control my reactions
but it seems hard to establish in real life aren't it?!
got that i-am-going-to-emo-mode kinda of feeling in me :/

looked out of my window and it's kinda full moon(:
cause my eyes are like blurry and can't see clearly
brings a little comfort and light to my heart.

suppose to meet alan and adora up yesterday
but din manage
suppose to go movie with jie and adora
but din manage too.
what's going on with me?!

mum's not working from tmr onwards
is on leave
but have to go see my uncle in hospital
cause he's like having some operation of sorts
hope that she can make time for ENROLMENT
this coming friday
looking forward to it! (:
though I'm like not doing much this time round
jiayou to all taking up some roles,
like peiru,precision drill peeps,colour party,GOH
blah blah and the list goes on.

i am trying very hard to affirm myself
that it's not
just one more affirmation
to let things remain status quo

be with me and guard my thoughts Lord;

2009-04-03T02:01:00.003+08:00

just had a chat with her, a long lost buddy
whom always took the effort to come find out what the latest in my life
once in a while
felt the guilt in my heart
why I did not do the same as per her life said
but after the almost 1 hour of talk
i really realised people do change
but friendship do remain

no matter how much I felt on the inside
after hearing all the updates on her life
am glad that God has preserved a friend like her in my life
I really hope I could have done more
to put in more effort to catch up how much we have lost out on each other's lives

do take care of yourself my dear friend
with the amount of time you have lost in your life
do make it up now that you are on track again
in terms of studies
other aspects of your life
I know perhaps I don't have the right to comment much
but just one thing: take care and love yourself

our friendship still stays
and it brings comfort to know that
at the end of the day
even when everything don't turn out right for you
I am still regarded as your friend
one of your best friend
thank you for that
really thank you! (:

i guess it's when people really turn old
and starts to realise how much friendship mean
more than any other thing in your life
that you treasure and appreciate people
who have been missing so much from your life
and yet at the end of the day
they still turn back and call you: "My dear friend"

post dedicated to ADORA TAY with love,
gladys

2009-03-19T19:42:00.002+08:00

another of my sweetheart's birthday! and it's him, yupp you LEONG W.J!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD MANNNN! (:

been really long since I've met him up
cause he's busy with his stuff
and I with mine

but nothing I can say
except those times in secondary school
whereby he always listens in silence to all my grumbles
to say he's just like my sister!
and indeed he acts like one too XD
but he's also another dear friend of mine I keep in mind.

though we may not talk much
but I enjoy being with him
the once in a while meet ups really make my day
together with kerby and meiping(:

know that he's really busy and enjoying his school days in AJ
oh wells. but I know that our friendship won't fade off just as it is
he doesnt talk much, but just his presence is appreciated(:

LEONG W.J
really thanks for all the comfort and laughter you have brought me all this while
and hope that as you grow one year older
be more sensible about things and and and
if you ever ever get a girlfriend
or if you already have one without my permission
I will allow it only if she is as pretty as me hahahahahahah! :D

but anyway all the best for your big A's upcoming!
know that you very lazy but you still will turn out fine(:
know that I appreciate and love you this dear friend of mine
my forever 38 sister friend(:
and I wanna meet you up asap okay!
enjoy this special day of yours;
have fun buddy! :D

dedicated to mr leong,
gladys

2009-03-18T00:04:00.006+08:00

生日快乐!(Chinese)
Happy Birthday!(English)
Joyeux Anniversaire!(French)
Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu!(Japanese)
Saeng il chuk ha ham ni da!(Korean)
La Multi Ani!(Romanian)
Buon Compleanno!(Italian)
Parabéns a você !(Brazilian)
Som owie nek mein aryouk yrinyu! (Cambodian)
Van harte gefeliciteerd met je verjaardag! (Dutch)
Alles Gute zum Geburtstag! (German)
Selamat Ulang Tahun! (Bahasa Indonesia)
Fortuna dies natalis! (Latin)
Torson odriin mend hurgee! (Mongolian)
Gratulerer med dagen! (Norwegian)
Feliz Aniversario! (Portugese)
Janam din diyan wadhayian!(India)
Feliz Cumpleaños! (Spanish)
Grattis på födelsedagen(Swedish)
Suk San Wan Keut! (Thai)

Went to 20 countries to find out how to wish my dear friend here a very HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY!
which I doubt she can even read 5 of them or even have the patience to read thru all of them. haha. but still...

My dear girl is 20 today. Known her since Sec 1. Never fall short of ~~quarrels and~~ laughters. And always remembered how the canteen auntie used to mix the two of us up when we looked so alike in Sec 1 according to auntie which we both don't really like to admit though. The many things that we went thru together cannot be measured. The time that we had been together is countless. Seeing us through secondary school, thinking that that was the end, but no cause thank God that we went to the same school and even the same course in poly.

Really seen her grow.(though it sounds weird to say this cause she is older than me) but well seeing everything in her life still doing alright brings comfort to my heart. seeing her through the ups and downs in life, though I might not be there all the time for her. but I know best friends are not measured by that. cause deep in my heart I know and I acknowledge her 'My Best Friend' and indeed best is the term for only that one person in that one position in your heart.

Sounds rather mushy though. but it's once in a year that I get to appreciate her for being in my life all this while, so readers bear with it alright. (:

Sorry for not being at your birthday BBQ, I know I have disappointed you very much. Know that I may have always ps you many a times, and might make you sad. But I am really glad that you have been such a dear in my life through all the ups and downs in my life as well. I can't really remember how our friendship started, but know that I always give in to you la ok(haha!) Really glad to see that you and alex are doing so well, but still,

I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU AH HONG! (: *SUPER DUPER BIG HUG AND KISSES* :D

Once again and lastly HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY AGAIN! (:

with all my love,
gladys(:

2009-03-12T02:30:00.010+08:00

):

everything's just lumped on me.
guess it's caused I am in the stage of getting used to everything

wanted to find a confidant
but couldn't name exactly who could really 100% understand how I feeling
in a situation and position as such

everything will be over, soon.

but I know God can understand
no matter how great or deep
He understands.
my confidant,forever

CON-FI-DANT
One to whom secrets or private matters are disclosed

just very easily irritated these days
i'm really sorry to those whom I have lost my temper at
guess I am giving myself too much stress as well

let me remain in Your presence
where I am free
Rain down, my King

2009-02-14T01:00:00.004+08:00

happy v day everyone! :D
so excited that this day falls on a saturday
dunno why i feel the excitement in me also
but still maybe because my 18th is the day after! :D
can't wait :D

today tingx passed me a present she and alex bought for me
so paiseh laa.
and she is so fake can
say got things to pass to me
then i thought it was some notes that I lent to her
but still haha.
appreciate you and alex for that darling :D
she bought me a 3D minnie mouse puzzle

but the dumb thing is that
the price tag wasn't taken off
and and and
it is a MINNIE ok
the whole world knows that i like MICKEY
and its not the same mouse ok! :D
but still the thought that counts like what she said :D

then this coming sunday going to celebrate with my clique :D
eating dinner somewhere not decided yet
then can't wait to see them all lahhhh :D
then monday going out with my poly peeps :D
to the zoo
cause sunday can't make it.

perhaps it's God's present for me
cause Planetshakers are coming this sunday :D
let's hope they got some special gift for the birthday girl or something
wahahha. wishful thinking of mine.
but who cares.
like everyone has their presents for me :D
regardless big or small,
it's the sincerity that counts :D

ahhh. can't imagine I am turning 18 already
which means the legal age for some stuff :D
then clique chalet can buy liquor for the kids not 18 yet.
haha. cause I am like the oldest among all laaaa.
okay fine.. I'm old! ):
call me the BIG SISTER!

birthdays are always that exciting
and always lets people to look forward to...

till then,
gladys :D:D

2009-02-09T21:21:00.002+08:00

got this from nic wong's blog. thanks. :D
a few days back i was writing some stuff in my devotion notebook.
the previous post, yea. kinda got emotional and stuff
but I wrote saying that God always places a rainbow after every little storm
in my life.
just like how He promised Noah.
it's a rainbow of hope that He gave to me :D
I really appreciate that.

just like in the picture, the Father's wrinkled hand yet
it still provides warmth for the child
holding on tighter during the tough times
and providing guidance.

as I start today again
to learn how to lead the Master's life
I really hope it can be a good start as compared to
the previous time
being committed to have an appointment
and to spend quality time to sow that close
relationship just like a close friend.
(:

through the ups and downs,
always there for me.

anyway recently I catching this new taiwan drama, defeated queen.
and I am in love with ♥ethan ruan♥ yet again
then I put it on my msn pm, and like already having 3 persons
randomly coming to ask me cause they thought ethan was like my boyfriend or sthg.
lol :D

anyhow, today ended programming walkthrough test.
quite alright
next up will be 2 exams and holidays it shall be:D

but before that counting down to my 18th :D
6 DAYS MORE.
zoo here I come! :D

and tomorrow going to east coast
spending a day to cycle and fun :D
cause tomorrow no lessons! (:

till next time then;

in His love,
gladys

2009-02-04T00:12:00.003+08:00

but have I slowly faded away from all of your lives?
there was no continuation of the memories of us
even in our daily lives
perhaps we have slowly learnt to forget

my true joy
where have you been
stop hiding
for I am sick of this never ending search game

if you all have forgotten me,
at least I hope I was present in one of your best memory.

2008-12-31T18:57:00.004+08:00

jo's hand was shaking! but it was a nice one taken!

super don't want face de. take my phone and take phto of himself; bleahs

quite a pair of spastics there!

me and jo!

the four of us there. jo; zhihao; shuyan and me

spastic as forever. my xiaodidi zhihao;

shuyan; zhihao and my feet!

shuyan! on the mrt; with my twisted fingers;

same same; zhihao on the mrt with my twisted fingers! yea.

31 dec 2008

it's always nice to look back at the year that has past and plan new resolutions ahead(though most already get broken before the year finishes) but the feeling is fresh and everything is started on a term. what's past is past. no looking back and there won't be a chance to also. so might as well look ahead to what life has to offer. even if there are tough times you will anticipate, but who cares. it's the new year 2009 of harvest. hope it's gonna be a good year ahead, and it shall be. all the best people. be it where you are now, what exams you will be taking the year ahead. best wishes.

saying goodbye to 08' and hello to 09'

countdown time!

also uploaded some photos of the gathering at vivo. though there was only 4 of us. but who cares. it was really a good thing to end off the year with. catching up with friends. and i watched YES MAN. whees;

with love,
gladys

2008-12-15T01:03:00.002+08:00

YI CAMP 08' here I come!
GREEN TRIBE;

sorry to ewen that I cant go for your celebration. HAPPY 17TH yea sweetie(: i love you!

and I know some people will miss me. you know who you are, so don't be shy! HAHA(:

and I will miss all to be fair(:

so short post before I sleep, it's a very cooling rainy night here;

God bless me through this camp.

Can't wait to hear from the speaker!

Take care people, be back soon with updates >.<

BYEEEEE!

gladys;

2008-12-10T18:57:00.002+08:00

blog rose from the dead on 10 december once again

today was NETWORKING FUNDAMENTALS
total good game paper(:
i felt that almost half my paper i was trying my very best to crap through the question

anyway sorry to those who read. I appreciate all that
I was really busy but I decided to post today.

last saturday was myhope singapore.
and I was really happy that I got a new sister in Christ.
thank God for all that
precious moment bible for you nuoshi ,*promised*! (:

and I really hope to get by the common test period
it's really bad, got flu
and practically I am studying anew for the next day subject
which is totally terrible cause there is just so much things to study about!
tmr is MATHS paper, advanced stats. make I can make it through.
at least I hope it would be better than networking!
fancy me, a person who hated maths to say this.
so its either I am starting to love maths, or networking is real bad!

and BIG THANKS to ah HONG! hong qiaotingxxxx
I LOVE YOU LAHHHH!!!!!
for putting in that super effort helping me find some stuff on the blog
we two were really pathetic yesterday while she was at my house
like super funny when I think back about it
don't say I never appreciate you okayy
here I am declaring it in my blog.
so you better love me more!

hang in there gladys!
another 2 more papers to go!
and it's YI camp next week!
and i think i am in the GREEN tribe
so sad perhaps kidd aren't going to be there!
cause that botak boy is in army camp now.
ahhhh. regret not meeting him for lunch that day when he booked out!

````sorry in advance to ewen, i won't be there on your birthday!! ):
but sweetie, I hope you know I missed you
that time din see you at peiling's birthday
meet me soon okayyy!

thats about all.. take care all people!
I dunno when am I going to update again
and I am going to change my blogskin
cause KOONLAY complained saying that she cant navigate properly

talking about her(KOONLAY):
dear girl,
sorry I sounded that harsh over our conversation that day
I meant well
same thing I say again, I care so don't make me worry so much
it doesn't matter who you share your stuff with, even if it is not me
so long as you sort out your thinking correctly
and live out this one life of yours with no regrets
that is all
I may not understand everything that you might be going through
but I have ears to listen when you need them
I won't make you cry anymore
sorry!
hope to see you at xmas bash yeah! I love you<3
HUGGIES HUGGS! (:

sign off,
gladys :D

始终不能明白
你对爱情的定义也就是如此？
当时做错了，
但今天我明白了。
我，就是我
过着我的生活
没有必要为谁而改变

2008-11-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

today reformatted my computer like finally
hopefully there won't be any deadly BLUE screen showing bugcode USB drive anymore
stayed in school till about 7 plus

then bus-ed to the G1- salon nearby
and went for a hair cut
wanting in mind just a simple trimming of hair
and it ended up with
colouring + trimming

it's either the guy who cut my hair really knows how to promote
or i am really into easily believing people
or that he has some cute looks which just manage to allow me to say yes to the colouring
anyhow.
i coloured my hair dark brown
and trim my messy hair a little
and it cost me a freaking 73$
okay, i think i was basically out of my mind today!

and just finished talking to yewsiang on msn
he always does that start of a random chat on msn thing
and we talked like a whole load of rubbish about our own lives
and some of our common topics still yet
and guess what, and i don't think this is new to people who know him by nature

HE IS A SUPER KAY POH!

i am not trying to pull down his name here or something but you should have seen
how he pestered me for some things that he asked me about!
i hope he sees this! haha. but still,
it was the usual fun and laughter talking with this guy
though I dun really know him well.
but we just manage to talk like randomly still once in a while
doing the usual catching up in each other's super outdated life

and at times,
it's this kinda feeling that i wanna capture
and never let it go
being able to catch up with an old friend's life
knowing how he/she is doing
and be able to be constantly updated
to let me know that i am still a friend to him/her
and vice versa even after so long

PS: tues @ gym session. some stupid thing happened and it made me really embarrassed. don't wanna bother explaining but if you are kaypoh come ask me about it. haha. i mean arrghhh! can't continue. it's a small thing. but it's just!

short post, cause I wanna catch my beauty sleep!

to koonlay: enjoy ur trip to UK! capture more phtos for me to see okay! you will be missed my girl.

since then
i was alone on this journey
and even time
no longer matters

2008-11-09T21:57:00.009+08:00

this morning I woke up at around 11 plus. which is like the only day of the week I got to sleep this late. But anyway, I had to send a email. So I went to my blog thereafter. And I started reading up my past archive blog posts. And I really had a good laugh over some of them. Started this blog since I was sec 2 which was like in 2005

And time passes. It's going on soon to 2009. I remember writing posts cursing my tuition teacher then about all the math that he gave me. I was rather crude then and I really surprised about what I manage to post then. Young and innocent you call it. Or ignorant maybe? Then there were posts which recorded my everyday since I entered into sec 3. How I manage to grow out of the 2e1 missing syndrome. which gradually till now became the 4e3 one. And time really flies. And perhaps 3 years down the road I might be writing about missing my poly mates instead.

And I have no idea what I will be posting in the future years to come. But definitely not some vulgarities shooting at my teacher or boss. I thought I was really creative to have come up with some of the little writings amidst A maths lesson last time and psoting them at the end of my post each time.

Not forgetting the depression times, the "hating myself" times, the friendship treasuring times, the O level and all other school exam times, the times of crushes and love, oh well. As I think back, it is really something to relive on. But thank goodness I jumped out of my old character which I used to be. And I saw what had been the difference of me now. I appreciate what all my friends, teachers, family and God has done for me in my life that caused me the change.

I hope the next time I look back again. I have yet again realised that I have grown up. Try doing that sometimes maybe and see the difference. If there isn't any, perhaps it's time for self evaluation as to what you have been doing with your life.

Quoted by M1: ONE LIFE, LIVE IT!

and all the time, it's a blessing to have been where I am
and to be able to help those in need
big or small, that help would have brought a difference in their lives
and I hope I had made a difference in yours.

but, ~~leave out all the rest~~
you will be just a friend
a friend who once brought me through
all the laughter, happiness,memories
heartbreaks and tears.

2008-11-03T13:21:00.005+08:00

This post I dedicate to Mr Leong M.K and all those I know(but I really cannot remember who) taking the A's. Don't say I forget about those taking A's but only focus on those on the O's okay!

Today marks the start of yet another major exam for those in the JCs. It's the advanced level one, so obviously their stress level will be advanced level too! Still, trucks of luck and blessings for them. And I know it's not going to be easy but still, jiayou! and after this, no more 45cents bus fares,so treasure it yeah. haha :D

to kidd:
hope that after this exam, God will show you His plans that He has for your future. Fret not, cause He has His own timings for revealing His plans. Know that you might be at the cross roads not knowing where to head. But then I hope that you will just concentrate on your exams for now first, don't ge yourself all stressed out over it. You know you finish studying then for goodness sake go get more rest or do something that you like for relaxation right. Don't ger yourself all cooped up at home studying and whatsoever okay! :D all the best for the remaining papers, including your forte chemistry! and not forgetting your paper today, GP! fellow piggy, do well to bring glory to His name okay. piggy power! :D God bless.

and not forgetting the rest still taking the O's, hang on yeah! it's going to be over soon okay :D

i am so so tired today and I am contemplating about whether to join another cca in NP, been pondering over joining the HI(Hearing Impaired) Club for the past semester. but GB drill competition is upcoming and I am afraid of the commitment problem. so yupp. ): but still, know my priorities and everything will fall in place.

to my GB girls:
jiayou for your drill practices alrights:D I know there are many practices and tiring along the way and having to study at the same time. hmmm. God will pull you all through okay. Trust in Him. :D

till then, see me again :D

you've captured my heart
let my Father in heaven
be the only one

2008-10-29T20:13:00.002+08:00

today was one whole load of work. and the usual scheduled projects are coming my way:D
had lessons from 9am straight to 6pm. and had a short project discussion after that with terr.
but everything's still in control.
and every week passes by just like that.
so it's gonna be the end of 2008.
just like that.
aren't it fast?

somehow God places in me some food for thought each day either in school or when I am on my way to school. using the happenings and situations around me to tuck some thoughts into me.
people scolding vulgarties, people swearing by His name, people who are not very kind with their tongues, people who are much less fortunate than me, people who just take life for granted. is this the life meant to be?

in midst of life, I still search vaguely for my purpose of living. in midst of life, those past memories can still easily sweep me off my feet. of course, it's impractical to keep saying that I want to live only in the past where life can be so good and luxurious for me. everyone grows up and takes up some responsibility along the way. that's life aren't it. I wonder how my friends are doing, those that I have not been in contact for so long, or barely remember them just by their looks, some thought just linger in my mind how they are doing.

the chaos of life may disrupt my peace, but what's life without some troubles to toughen you up. I guess it's too big a philosophy, and what exactly is life philosophy about. sounds like a really boring topic for a blog post. but it's just some food for thought at a certain point of your life.
I know where I am heading ultimately, but most of the people around me still does not.
desperation drives me to prayers.

friends, do think? what is your true purpose of life? is living everyday,partying away, hanging out enough? have a good thought when you are free maybe?

The meaning of life is to give life meaning
-Unknown-

random: listen to 伯乐 by 林宥嘉!

2008-10-21T19:04:00.007+08:00

A GYM DAY!

just reached home about half past 5 even though it is like suppose to be an IS day whereby lessons actually end at 12pm!

morning was Sports and Wellness, and I went to the gym! and then the instructor was like going through the whole gym orientation process again! he's gerald and he's kinda like well built and everything. just like how any gym instructor is suppose to be lah. the lesson was like okay and gerald was kinda lame throughout. and my gastric kinda act up and I couldn't really carry on with the work out and everything.

then went for CATS lesson. it was interesting lah. as in the ways of creative thinking without any restrictions and judgement. the lessons are fun but i doubt the assignments will inspire any of my creative juices!

at 12pm it was GYM again! yay! i think i really love it! and it's gonna be like a weekly affair kinda stuff. but of course the bad thing is that I realise that I gained weight! but it's like duh~ cause I haven exercise like since forever and then have been eating and gorging myself! blahr. so it's obvious I get some fats and weights. then met gerald there again! cause he was hosting the gym orientation that day.

but still today's gym session was like more focused on the legs part. and I think the after effects is going to show like tomorrow morning! and I will not be able to walk by then due to sore muscles! din manage to really work out my arms muscles and everything. but I really fancy the idea of MUSCLES, but of course not too exaggerated ones!

went for lunch at canteen 2 and made me felt that all the exercise was in vain. and whatever and manage to finish my programming. and I signed up for the blood donation 08 at NP! it's good to be able to help others, but I am kinda scared cause it's like the 1st time for me. but I just hope that the nurses can find my veins easily cause I can't seemed to be able to find them though.

went back home with a set of salmon don set. and ate it right in my stomach! blah. and it really made me feel lousy! not because of the food but because I felt that I exercise in vain! but the food esp the salmon was really great! :D

lastly, GOOD LUCK to all the O's peepies out there. know it's gonna be a tough time for you all this period but after that freedom awaits you okay! JIAYOU! AND GOD BLESS! remember to pray before each exam! :D

and LAST LAST LASTLY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY BENJAMIN TAN! forever the BRAINY ONE. take good care my dearest daddy, even if you always bully me, but still you must do well in your JC life okay. I know you can de! HUGGGSSS! <3

a simple word
made me smile
a simple thought
made me laugh
a simple you
made me whole
a simple love
made me fell deeply
with you

2008-10-13T00:13:00.009+08:00

some super outdated phtos taken during xiaodidi zhihao's birthday :D and some taken when I went to somewhere near the F1 tracks place during the race days;

still as spastic when i'm with these two :D

me,jie, daddy and xiaodidi :D

me, jie and daddy :D
my e3 family <3

i'll never fail to capture his spastic moments:D the birthday boy!

his birthday cake:D oreo ice cream cake:D yummy! (but fattening lahrrr!)

a group photo of the day :D

me and shuyan :D i wonder why she gave that expression?!
still the spastic three gathered!

car on modelling near the race track! the silver one :D
i was trying to find a nice pose with the white car :D

just the white one alone :D
this shot was kinda pathetic :D
trying to take a nice shot but people always pass by

anyway, tomorrow's school reopening :D kinda looked forward but at the same time not. the feeling's like awkward and stuff. but still friends in jc got or or getting theri promos results. best of luck to those who haven't gotten them.

to meiping jie:
don't worry too much girl. update me with the news first hand yeah. i will wait for ur call/ sms. but meanwhile do reconsider about what you really want for your future. don't always be so indecisive yeah. cause it's your future so take control of it okay! like what i said, i will be there. a tissue to offer, a shoulder to lend. no problem at all my dear :D and happy happy advanced birthday to you! though you have odac that day. but who cares. you are so going to enjoy your big day dearie, cause you deserve it alrights. it's always nice to celebrate yourself being more mature and becoming more beautiful yeah. anything you wanna share. my handphone's on. my ears are open. anytime! :D minus my beauty sleep hours of course :D lastly, for your strength and encouragement. I LOVE YOU!

to my dear ting:
sorry for today that i couldn't go out with you. i know you hate it when people ps you. i'm sorry. but i cant seem to reach you by sms or phone. hopefully you know that tmr have to meet earlier in school and did receive my sms :D can't wait to see you in school my dear girl. i missed you for 2 months ++ le. huggs!!!! :D i'm sorry once again! and i once again say i'm JEALOUS over your black ipod!
:D

to cleo my xi-gua:
dear girl, happy birthday! hope you will enjoy this special day of yours. your chubby smile never fail to bring me my smile as well. I really hope to see you always so cheerful and bubbly like you always are. and I am happy that I have known you much better thru GB and even cell group:D huggies! enjoy ur birthday even though it is still a school day and dont be discouraged by your results yeah! hold on to His promises and He will bless you! jiayou in your studies and be blessed as you continue to grow in Him and serve Him faithfully:D

signing off,
your dear ha-mi-gua<3

i just hope this coming semester will be a great one.
and I hope to make gym my second home cause I really hope to work out
and of course hope to find the time to:D
jiayou to all who are starting school
and good luck:D

with love,
gladys

what passed is history
things that are meant to be forgotten
i have slowly to do it
so live your life as it was meant to be
cause we have crossed paths
and will never be

2008-09-19T14:32:00.005+08:00

PRAISE GOD :D

everything's been so great. really thank God for all He has done in my life. for honouring me even as I honour Him(: work's been tiring that's why I haven been updating. still, I am happy cause of my GPA, I got 3.93! I was really shocked and happy at the same time. and the new semester timetable is out, my classes end at 12pm on fridays. tell me how great God can be(:

and since then, I could commit to serve GB on friday afternoons(: it's just amazing what He can do in my wretched life. But as things are on the high note, of course everyone is happy about it, but concurrently, perhaps I should also take time to reflect upon my own life.

Dad's happy about my results and of course he is expecting more from me for the semesters to come. and he wants me to go to a good uni. that is my dream ultimately. but let nature takes its course. Mum's hasn't got much to say. just hope that I will keep it up and do my best. see how opposites attract comes into the case of my parents.

nevertheless, school's going to start soon. went for the diploma plus prog briefing today. and accepted to enter the course. hope I can be able to cope with this extra workload by His strength. It's really a great joy to be able to serve Him, be it in small or big things.

and seeing the new start for the brigade ministry, I really hope this new revolution will start with great power and continue to flourish thereafter. I have a great team of people to work with, and I am looking forward. (:

the tertiary mission team is now in china, hope everything's well for them(:

till next time, I guess it will be a long time later.
loads of luck to all my friends taking their promos soon or whenever it is. jiayou!

loved-

end of story
hope you are happy(:

2008-08-22T01:33:00.003+08:00

a childhood memory to share...

I have a grandmother, not my real one
but because she took care of me while I was young
she gave me a very sweet childhood
i called her ah ma. because I loved her
i called him her husband ah gong, because I loved him
I din have a grandfather to dote on me since young
cause both passed away when I was born
so to me, they were like my grandparents..

they had three children.
zhuzhu jie, wenqiang kor and zoe jie
that was how I addressed them
and to me, they were important in my childhood memories
they played with me, they dote on me as if I were their kid
because I was young then

they saw me through my ugliest moment
when I fell as I walked
when I held the microphone in my hand and tried to sing
all these they were with me

after I grew up things changed
but still I visited them because they were on my mind
not constantly I admit, but they occupied that part of my heart

some years back, ah gong passed away
I cried as I held the phone in my hand as I heard about the news
I remembered how he held the walking stick
how he slowly lose his memory because of a disease
how he eventually became bedridden
so thin beyond recognition
that I really felt he would break as I held him
I cried each time because I saw him in that state and I couldnt do anything
eventually he left me...

today I went to visit ah ma,
she was old, her hair was white
she had an operation for her knee
it was all part of growing old
I understood that
but what made me so devastated was the fact
that she did not want to share with me what happened to her
even though I know she was weak
why? had I lost her trust?

and there she was holding the very same walking stick that ah gong held before he left...
and she told me "yingying, ah ma have to hold the walking stick now"
I almost cried. because I was afraid that I would lose her eventually
the same way I lost ah gong...
I dont want to.. to lose her...

then I found out some really bad matters about what was going on in this family
I did not know.. I really did not
I just merely overheard what zoe jie said to her friend
and I knew what was happening

what happened to the people I knew in my childhood?
pride,money and fame got the better of them?
i knew I shouldnt have interfered. because I was indeed just an outsider to the family
but in my heart, they were my family as well
my childhood family
why had the people changed so much from what I knew them to be?
I saw ah gong phto in zoe jie room.
and ah gong seemed to be telling me something.
I am not sure what
but as I see ah ma getting more frail by the days
I am afraid
because I have seen too many of these eternal partings
that I dont want to experience them anymore
at least not from the people around me

live strong ah ma. there are many things I haven't done for you
to repay you for giving me such a sweet childhood
in people's eyes, you are nothing more than a nanny
but to me, you are just like my grandmother whom I love
I really don't wish for you to become like ah gong..
his departure was enough for me to take
dont leave me, cause there will be no one to dote for me as you would.

has money and influence got so much power over a person?
I have no idea. but please. I love you all.
stop all these bad blood and fighting and hatred.
I dont wish for things to be on the worst side I have ever imagined

wenqiang kor, be like how you were when I was young wont you?
piggyback me like how any father would.

zhuzhu jie would love to touch me on my head and call my name dearly

zoe jie would love to play with me when I was bored

ah gong would buy me my favourite food

ah ma would teach me all the things I needed to learn
hw to hold the chopsticks properly
hw to write properly
and comfort me when I threw a lousy tantrum.

all these memories you all have given, I wont forget for life. ever.
for the beautiful childhood memories. thank you all.

I love ah gong
I love ah ma
I love zhuzhu jie
I love wenqiang kor
I love zoe jie
I love you all sincerely from the bottom of my heart.

it was just my childhood I chose
if there was anything I could do to turn back time
if there was anything I could do to restore the good relationship
I would do it.
trust me, for you all
I would.
no strings attached because of love

2008-08-11T01:00:00.007+08:00

pretty sweet 43rd nat day spent at grandma's house!
awesome parade segment which i loved the most and my auntie almost found it a bore. ><

some pictures below to convince you why my granny's place is good for catching nat day live
if you wont want to be caught in a crowd!
but forgive for the poor pictures because my phone is only 3.2m pixels folks!
there's the beautiful evening sky;

some smoke pattern by the black knights;

another one with 5 of the black knights together;
pity that i din catch the one they made the heart shape.

fireworks!

more fireworks!

okay, last shot,fireworks!

then went to welcome my sweetie dear andy back from surabaya,indonesia. so we went to the airport. and my family went to have a look at the T3><
thats my mum,dad and bro sitting arnd the bottom of a i-dunno-what tree.
the chairs were comfortable >
<
thats kenneth pointing to the art piece we named "onion", his expression totally says:"hey all, this is the "onion" at T3"

thats my boy just coming out of the luggage area.

trying real hard to pose for my camera.

after which we went for popeye's! their mashed potato totally rock. and i ate one large one at like 10 plus at night which is supposed to be no eating time. but who cares.cause it's not like there is popeye to eat everyday you know. and anyhow. before that i went candy empire @ T3 which i was totally fascinated. wished i could drown myself in all the candies and chocolates whatever. and their stuff are all like king size or jumbo big packets or sthg. which is totally >< style="color: rgb(153, 255, 153);">everything from candy empire pretty please someone?!
or just daily doses of popeye's mashed potato and cajun fries will do.
and the above sounds totally fat to me.

going to gymwerkz @ sch tomorrow. hope my slimming plan will work out totally fine and that my persistence and endurance will last me long!

time cannot erase a feeling this strong
neither can my love for you be.
the hardest goodbye was you saying so

2008-08-07T14:19:00.007+08:00

he is my super cutie :D TAN XIN HAN ANDY

some super outdated photos :D

Small piggy's birthday! 4th of august(:

(family portrait)

(his super chocolate-y breadtalk cake!)

(mum, dad and birthday boy)

(me and my dearest <3)
(taken in the microsoft office toilet, inspiring!)

(my girls in class!)

(shiyun & me in alumni toilet!)

(that was me trying to act spastic!)

(hazel,viki and me)

(it was terrible to half squat and take phtos)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY,HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

happy birthday evil monster(:

thanks for everything you have given
good or bad
time will heal
still i love you
i really do.

2008-07-29T20:29:00.000+08:00

today school ended like what i've missed for so so long. 10am-12pm and that is the end of school :D these kind of days are totally missed for the past few weeks of my life.
and mainly the reason why i haven been updating my blog till dara tagged me to update. which totally shows how mouldy my blog has become. ):

but anyway, yes i was busy with tons of assignments(actually 2 only, but 2 major ones) and yeah, almost got me killed yeah. but the cloudy days of going home at 10pm everyday is over. and i am only left with 3 tests next week and freedom once more yeah!

cant wait for then to come :D:D but i probably will be going to work, my classmate intro me to go orchard cathay to work. kinda cool new experience:D think i am going for it soon! and i am so not going to slack this 2 months holiday coming my way!

anyhow, my youngest brother going off to indonesia for some cultural trip on th 6th. blah. still. hmmm. getting a little worried though. cause its his 1st time out of town and everything and in my eyes he is still that young boy who never grows up. so yeah. just a sister's worry!

today went out with ting and alan today. went to catch hancock. quite a cool movie. though quite late to have caught it. but still, the catch phrase of the day is:" call me an asshole...one more time!" had a hotdog combo to go along in the movie which cost 3 bucks only because of the promotion of the upcoming movie: money not enough 2. so golden village promoting the super value combo or sthg. :D

thereafter went shopping arnd jurong point. saw many things that i really wanted. but i know i should totally control cause i have no money already. i spend the remaining money for the week alrdy. imagine that! blahr. and yes, i am broke!

bus-ed home. thn got a weird auntie who kept asking the passengers arnd for money to eat. she looked rather haggard. i mean i dun despise her or anythg. i could understood all the dialect she was speaking but i still rejected her. and somehow, i got this prompting about writing down this phrase:"helping others when i possibly can" but as i looked at her. she seems perfectly fine to me. as in physically, she is not diasabled or what. so i had second thoughts on giving her money. blahr. i din know. ): still thinking about it now though.

got down the bus. randomly wanted a haircut. and here comes the rather annoying part. i went in and this guy serviced me. so i was thinking he was rather friendly and everythg. until he asked me about my educational level. and he straight away prompted if i was in university or working?!?!?! and there i was embarrassed totally cause i was thinking if i was that old looking to make him have that perception and everythg!!!!! and i had to clarify i was in poly year one!

okay luh. but still. after that i had a cut and wash @ $20. and he massaged rather well during the hairwash. so he is forgiven. and i find him quite friendly and has rather high service standards:D and he is kinda sweet looking. so forgiven once more:D
okay, i sounded like i liked him a little.
erm... no! not that way. haha.

thats all till now. i promise to update often:D take care people! love and miss you all loadies:D i am so wordy i realised!sorry!

~~9 days more..~~
i still regard it important in my heart.

carry on with your life
i don't hope to be your everything
i just wish that i was a little something in
this life of yours.

2008-07-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

today was the th 3rd day of e learning week. staying home to do work is so much better. although CM and FSP did kill me today cause i couldnt even understand one bit about the freaking assignments...

and i went back to school during th middle of FSP lesson cause my dear girl was almost getting angry at me for not going to school to pei her... so yes, i did went back and thank goodness teacher didnt ask me any questions on the forum or else i will be dead meat. and thanks to my sister, HAZEL for the uber patience in explaining all the programs to me... xie xie ni! thats how our friendship grows right:D:D

and after a few hours of cracking my freaking brain. and killing umpteen number of brain cells. tingx suggested going to the alumni clubhouse for some dinner(: went there with her and jiameng. initially i was craving for kaki fuyong. but then still i enjoyed my dinner thr. first time i went there. it was rather high class in that sense.. i will join alumni next time! and there was this halo bar there and a play ground:D the view there was awesome!

we ordered quite a lot...
fish and chips( my order)
tom yam soup
baked rice
chix rice set
ice lemon tea
milo dinosaur
mango pudding
almond longan pudding

e learning week gonna end soon. time passes fast when you enjoy them. i simply love e learning:D:D
tmr have to go for cca after my e learning classes. blahr! running )): after so long never run sure die. and i promise myself i am gonna go to the gymwerkz orientation and regular gym sessions after that.its all for slimming down sake cause i am FAT

i am into secondhand serenade's fall for you & lifehouse's whatever it takes

went home after that. was feeling all hyped up and stuff. till i heard about some things from ah gong sq..
got worried, very worried and still worried... hope you are fine... no matter what happens i will be there...

i will do whatever it takes
if i could turn back everything
if not, plan me a great escape
that i could run away from
everything and anything
about you

29 days more

2008-07-06T23:27:00.001+08:00

blahr.been too lazy to update about what has been going on. school time is passing real fast please(: and managed to scrape past my web publishing project work due last friday.

and after that went for a session @ NUS school of computing. which i proclaimed(with thick skin) to my friends that it would be my future school. haa. no fat hope way unless i study like real hard and smart or sthg. and i am quite interested in taking social sciences or business as my minor or cross major or sthg. and something interesting to take note is that they actually offer gender studies which sound oddly funny. okay, i love NUS.

and did i mention a trip to microsoft singapore. it was totally cool to see those newest gadgets and softwares released by microsoft. it's just making me wonder how the people there actually managed to just think of such creative inventions. and they do have students on attachment there which i believe it to be a good exposure. it was just awesome, same goes for the toilets. haa! and i thought the security might think we are some nuts or sthg.

basically nothing much, and e-learning for this upcoming week which equates to no going to school which equates to waking up later for most of my friends but the same for me since it is like i wake up at that very same time everyday for usual school. ): blahr. but it seems like a molehill of work to be done. blahr. so looking forward to holidays.

and i love this poly system of holidays and studies((: it just makes me happy((: or perhaps it was all just a deception cause i am still in first semester enjoying. and then i will die somewhere in the middle of all the projects and tests then.

a late update of th phtos from my flyer trip. (:

my mama with her tired look :D love her<33

sometimes i love them,just sometimes when they behave.

my aunt and my brother. they are funny overall.

he is my lovely boy when he is sweet. but he is still FAT.

trying to act emo, with that ballon sculpture behind me.

my mama and andy

mum,grandma,andy,me.

my family :D dad just doesnt smile somehow.

night view,badly taken. blame the cam resolution.

all who went for th flyer trip :D exclude my uncle who was th photographer.

proudly presenting the singapore flyer :DD

just maybe in midst of my life,
i could forget every single thing
except you

you were that accident that took my heart
you were that incident that took my memories
you were that person that took my love
tell me what else am i left with.

2008-06-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

and all i could see was my lone shadow in the glass reflection
with my mind all filled with your images and our memories.
it's you i love, no doubts.

love this picture, yet getting more emotional. )):

will update more about my singapore flyer trip and the rest.
till then;

2008-06-28T01:34:00.000+08:00

indeed this week of school flies. and it is a saturday morning that i managed to post yet another note on my blog.
rahrr. my dear tingx got chicken pox.blahrr! haha. but i am still amazed by the fact that a girl at her age can get it. okay, i am being evil i admit. but i still laugh over when i mentioned that to my mum.
and yes, i became her homework deliverer, went to visit her on thurs since there was like no cca or wad. and she was covered in white cream and red spots all over. so poor thing. can't even recall what it was like to have chicken pox. but her brother was like saying it was karma or sthg, since she eat too much chicken for this 19 years of her life. :D oops!

and looking forward to two outings next week during FP. one to microsoft and the other to NUS, school of computing(if i din hear wrongly), wonder why i am still getting all excited over fieldtrips like this when i am 17 years of age. i guess it's more of wanting to find some childhood memories from all these.

got back two of my test papers, both a miracle to me, A+ for WP and 81.5 for COS(which equates to an A i guess?) but my portfolio i got a B+, but well it was fair enough and i am happy with it((: so not looking forward to getting maths and programming results,which i bear no hope in, especially when there are failures for FSP. blahr. hope it is not me though. )):

had chalet during that two weeks of holidays, was lazy to update about it. but it was a whole load of catching up during then. and yes, i believed everyone enjoyed it. wonder when it will be the next time we will have such things again. ((: soon i perceive?

a short term to look forward to, followed by exams yet again. and a whole lot of assignments to rush through before that. and it will be term break! cool. one sem passes rather fast, thinking back about the first day of poly. :D
and greg keeps disturbing me recently. but i love his green-shrek-like hairband to the core when he lent it to me today((:

my classmates are going for some toy and comic fair at i dunno where. but it sounds appealing to me, but not yet that much because i am not really into them unless there is like mickey mouse plushies or sthg(:

basically finish crapping, hopefully i will find the mood to update soon.
tomorrow is family gathering.which means no cell and service for me ):
and i heard we are going for the flyer ride((:
getting all up and excited about it. but i heard that it will be quite a boring 40 mins ride up there. oh, shan't think about it cause it totally spoils the whole ambience.

okay, take care people. you're missed.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUTING!

the lies of our love
makes the stories of my life

strangers that met
friends that became
eyes that locked
hands that held
promises that broke
tears that flowed
love that last
all because i thought
i could trust.

2008-06-16T19:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday went for fishhead steamboat @ northbridge rd. my family went with my grandma and aunts. the food was great. but it was damn hot, cause we were stranded at the most end corner of an alley and thr was like no fan nothing. but then the shop had great business. thank goodness we went thr earlier and finished eating. cause it happened to be Fathers' Day then many families eat out and stuff.

then we went to the singapore flyer thr, to just take a glance aft dinner and stuff. dad agreed and drove us thr. i was awed by the greatness of the whole structure, esp when you are lookin right up from the bottom of it. usu i only get to pass next to it when my dad drove past the highway. seriously want to get a ride on it! and the funny thing is that you wont be able to notice that it is moving unless you see carefully, goes to show how long the ride can be.

lastly, went to king albert mac drive thru,andy got a oreo mcflurry while i got th green tea one. seriously, don't try if you dun have crazy obsession about green tea stuff, cause you will find it yucky! but i found it quite alright though. haven tried the spicy nuggets and onion rings. wondering bout the taste. but of cos, watch KUNGFU PANDA! it is funny((:

dara called last night regarding th chalet thingy this coming wed. yupp i am going with the pathetic few. and its 30 plus plus plus,cos she was pai seh to say 40 bucks. so dara and i was sharing some budgetting tips. i think i will meditate on cup noodles for the whole of 3 days 2 nights. ((: trust me, i can!

today stayed home whole day, cause my ez link card with mum, asked her to top up for me. and then was watching my new favourite sweeetie show, fated to love you((: so happen, everyone seems to be watching it please. blahr. haa. thanks to evon cause i was blog hopping and thn read it on one of her post and decided to watch it(((: go watch it k(: promised funny, touching & romantic. i cried like dunno hw many times last night for watching it(:

last sat had amazing race held by YI also. quite alright. but was tiring. and managed to know more ppl from zealot 2(: lastly, welcome peiru back from her pbb(if she gets to see this).

gonna start school next week, and the whole round of busy bee business gonna start all over again. i am so not expecting school ))):

looking forward to th chalet though. and happy advanced 17th birthday to the bimbo queen DARA SEAH. please read it,thanks((:

♥fated to love you

won't forget all that we shared,
but bury it deep inside my heart
reminding me that all that happened
was part of my life story

2008-06-12T15:16:00.000+08:00

went to east coast on monday. know it's a little late to post now. haa. for all the details about what funny and joker incidents that happened that day. go to my links and click the big name MEIPING and read thr. haha. shall post all th photos then. ((:

a short summary about tht day:
1.kerby fell in love with subway and it's bbq sauce?!(just like i did, no wonder he's my didi<3)
2.kerby knocked right into the NATIONAL PARK dustbin while trying to act like rihanna on his bike. haa!
3.meiping almost knocked into a tree
4. we rode almost 30km on bike that day and still din reach changi jetty!
5.we took 506 and got lost, ended up paying $2.35 for bus fare
6.we waited for kerby for about 1.5hrs
7.we ate burger king for dinner
8.my butt hurts from all th cycling
9.i was the SLOWEST cyclist
10. weijian and kerby goes to the toilet for long durations
11. we saw a eerie "thing"(which we couldnt figure out what it was) hanging outside subway's entrance
12. subway @ east coast is called the marine cove outlet(i was stupid enough to not know and let the staff thr have a gd laugh at me)
13.go to that particular bike rental shop @ east coast. it cost us $5 for 5 hrs only((:
14.we bought a keychain from liying cos her sch was havin some charity stuff.
15.we did loads of stupid things indeed.

090608

my beloved jie & me. and i love her hair; haa. of cos i love her<3

did i not mention he could sleep everywhr?

all without specs<3
kerby tan,gladys tan,meiping tan<3

i looked fierce please. rahrrr!

my loveliest didi and me<3 he looked kinda blurr

taken while walking the underpass

and obviously they looked like retards more than robots please

kerby went hugging almost everythg inclusive of the lamp post as seen AHH!
looks rather wrong though

PHTO OF TH DAY! although it was super unglam.
taken under a block in bedok area.everyone passing by looked. ((:

me and didi's slippers((:

such a cliche kinda phto,OUR SLIPPERS &(shoes for meiping)

the world under my WHITE SLIPPER. lol!

kerby simply sleeps everywhr he goes.tanning @ the same time.

taken at our end point of cycling that day. it's th four of us((:

my bitchy SISTER & dearie, weijian;

jie eatin her sandwich(:

see how idiotic my dearest brother can get.

his biting of ice cubes irritates me! and he still does it on purpose.

ok, self obesssion with me and my coke light

four of us at subway((: having our brunch/lunch wadevr;

taken with my shades @ west mall bus stop waiting for kerby.

3 poor thing taking phtos waiting for mr late king, kerby tan.

they were trying to entertain me on th bus. givin sian diao face;

kerby's 1st time @ subway, eatin his ham &cheese. he loves it crazily.

presenting MR SUBWAY 2008(:

and i learnt in the process of growing up
that nothing last forever
everyone moves on when time's up
looking forward to the only way
cos memories are those that will
pull me back to square one again.

2008-06-07T22:57:00.000+08:00

7june

super long since i updated. got kinda tired to update as well.
this week went well. rather well till i flunked my programming paper on thurs
which so happens to be my last paper as well. i was in the holiday mood alrdy
so wasn't in a rly study mood for it. )):

on tues, crazy shopping spree idea caught my mind. and yes. in midst of common test, i dragged tingx to go shopping with me. spent almost 50bucks tht day on clothes. and seriously, a top caught my attention @ cotton on. that place is sweet pls. visit it lahr. not trying to advertise or wad. and i seriously love th top i chose.

then thurs aft last paper went to bugis with tingx again. cab thr with viki & tingx.seriously dun try taking taxi during peak period plus going to places with ERP. it will kill ur wallet or sthg. )): then shopped with tingx and her fren,alan @ bugis street. had in mind to buy a nice bag & shoes perhaps. and ended up not fulfilling my target and got more clothes instead. I AM BROKE. like seriously. spent like 90 bucks over those 2 days )): oops!

wed went back to bbss to collect cert with mark and jo. yah. only jo got his in the end. cos mark's and mine got prob with the cca part. like many of th others also had the same prob. and i have to go back again! rahrr. thank goodness school is near. but anyway, the TA had funny hair lahr.

friday went for pool @ JE Kpool. felt kinda messed up that day. then went to tingx house after that. chocolates was th greatest remedy for me((:

gratz to tingx for opening her new blogshop. do go visit it people and give her your support yah?! visit her blog for more details((:

HOLIDAYS! ((: gonna enjoy this short 2 weeks. and having gatherings,chalets and loads. gonna have fun i anticipate. it's the people you having gatherings tht matters. it will make a great difference seriously((:

jy to those who are having exams after this holidays though((:
kinda miss my didi cos he is still away in indonesia.blahr. hope he comes
back safely and soon. (:

take care people((: till next time again.

if you wanted to leave
thr was no way i could hold you back
not even one extra moment

love and memories we shared were those
that was holding me back
from leading the life i was entitled to

♥I am who I am
for the great I am
says I am

2008-05-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

25may

my blog's becoming like a weekly blog kinda thing. but sadly i really have no time for blogging. and even as i type, i have to like type real fast and stuff. cos it's like 12 plus midnight and i just sorta complete some of my work. trying to relax a little before i go grab some rest )):

poly life aren't easy after all. where did those rumours about poly life being slack came from.. assignment, presentations, projects. oh pls. nothing stops there and then. just as one ends, the other is upcoming. and then it's common test in 2 weeks. though it sounds like just a plain common test but it's like stressing me out and stuff. )):
ok, i am grumbling. i admit alright. blogs are like my only way of venting, since my parents are busy themselves,since i haven got the time to find a friend to confide in and everyone seems busy. )):

this week was like super hectic and stuff. haven completed my web page designing due this coming friday and thr are like umpteen of things waiting for me to do. blahr. yah. i can't wait for holidays. like so many gatherings lining up for me to go((: and i simply love that feeling((: chalets have to wait till december i guess, though thats like super long later. i want a 4e3 gathering also((: 2e1 is holding one, but wonder if everyone will turn up though. even if nt, i am still so gna meet my girls ok, we never are lacking of a topic to talk about((:

gonna go cycling with my dearest didi((: and collecting results with my sweetest jie and maybe some others((: just let common test vanish or sthg((: then i can go chill at coffee bean/starbucks. it's been simply too long i haven been doing so. spare me all these freaking agony!

i know the rest of them are like having exams after their holidays and stuff. so they wont be getting a proper holidays of sorts! ahhh! jiayou ok people((: i love you all & i miss you all too((: hearing my juniors talking about mrs goh and mdm yaw being their form tcher and about interesting quotes and words from mdm yaw, it really brings back a lot of memories during those sec 4 times<3

growing older brings a lot of responsibilites, it does. and people do change over time. not only in appearance, but character as well.

but anyway, it's the GSS alrdy! and i'm so gna go shop till my legs sore or sthg all at one go in a day with my fav girls(: though i may not have much capital, but i am running out of clothes in my wardrobe, and i hate it! though my mum begs to differ and keeps complaining why i have to buy clothes when i alrdy have one ton of them?!
window shopping will do me fine, but buying is the real thrill!?

& tonight i was watching th charity show raising funds for the china earthquake, really touches me. and one story that th host shared made me cry. it was about a mother who used her own body to protect her child,who was only 3 months old, and when the rescue team found her, she was dead alrdy but her child was sleeping soundly in the warmth of her hug... aren't it touching how great a mum's love can be?! appreciate your parents. and count your blessings.

we don't have to rely on disasters to tell us how blessed we are.
we don't need disasters to remind us to treasure our loved ones.

till next time then(: take care!

you are that unspoken secret of my life
that i seldom mention but always remember.

2008-05-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

20may

seriously SO LOOONNGGGGG!

gonna just post so random pics about my class,IT01 ever since sch started.
we din really noe each other well at first. but everythg turned out quite fine
so yupp, proudly presenting my class,IT01

(AARON,seldom talk to him)

(JERALD, trying to act hardworking)

(GREG & LJ, jokers of th class posing)

(RANDOM! i've got an A+ for my programmming test!, well almost everyone in my class did too)

(JINYU playing peek-a-boo)

(thats like what we basically survive on everyday! COFFEE/TEA)

(KIM,trying to act as if she is sleeping)

(CHUEH CHING, funny girl with a difficult-to-spell name)

(ZHENGMING, kuku guy but nice

(thats th crazy girl sitting beside me in class. SHIYUN)
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(crazy as it seems, she is addicted to CS)

(thats my classrm with my classmates, GOTCHA!)

(GINA,the pro!)

(VIKI, sweet girl)

but regardless, 2e1 05' and 4e3 07' are still my forever loves. never ever will forget those memories with you people as we carry on in life. perhaps i wont recognise you all one day on the streets, but trust me, memories are enough to keep me going on((: HUGGS!

i haven virtually started on my WP(web publishing) and i totally wasted today and th 3 long days of holidays before that! blahr. i am lazy lahr. yes i am!gonna start after this post!

i cant wait for holidays! but before that is COMMON TEST! ): blahr. but on th thought of being able to see my deariie friends i haven seen in donkey years, all's worth it. but i can't contact my JOSEPH ANG YONGQIANG! i miss him to th core lahr. i think he evaporated or sthg.

alrights people, take care and have fun! pop by on msn and chat with me ok! i miss everyone, AND I HAVEN TAKE MY O LVL CERT! ): i'm gonna date ppl to go with me! whole of 4e3 better still! i miss all of them lahr! ((:

i'm craving for roti prata && teh tarik @ 2337hrs.damn crap lah. FATTENING THOUGHT~

till next time then! ((:

&& do pray for th ppl caught up in the china earthquake and myanmar. my heart really goes out to them. especially after watching th news and those videos and screenshots. THE WORLD IS CHANGING, IT REALLY IS.

not saying th last goodbye
but letting go of all we've had
thats the toughest.

2008-05-04T22:29:00.000+08:00

4may

time kinda fly this year. just around the corner it's gonna be half the year gone.
haven been updating regularly. )):
on labour day some of my gang went to marina for steam boat but i couldn't join them
cos the night before i fell sick
had a stupid fever )):
i miss them larhrrr! )))):
esp my jie((:
dunno when can i ever see her again?!
and dara called so randomly on fri night
to talk to me about the trip lahr
ok, i miss those times ok.
when she always randomly call to complain about some things
and then randomly hang up the phone to eat her mcspicy!
seriously fun((:

then ytd went to gb hq for some zonal mtg. it was BORED
like seriously not much thing to do de.
then just listening to some updating of news and events
before that was a welcome speech by mrs tay.
though me and shan was like alrdy late
as in it was suppose to start at 1430hrs
but we went in like half an hr later.
and the welcome speech was still on lahr.
we left like 4 plus. kinda like waste time.
then went to kovan heartland mall((:
the super famous bubble tea shop-cupwalker
to get my uber BIG cup of chocolate blended

and i rly meant it when i said BIG ok!
wa almost double the size of usual cups.
and of cos the price also quite ex.
then cab down to church.
the journey was real fast. and i ate curry puff on the cab.
i guess the uncle was super angry xxx:
cos shan ate chicken wing & i ate curry puff
making him go hungry in that enclosed space and everythg ((: haa

school's been great so far.
rather slack you can say
when other ppl are like rushing assignments like mad
dont worry my time will come after term break ok! )): blahr.

went to atrium with lee e today to do my IS draft for tues.
kinda chunk it up after 3 hrs of cells dying.
for a 250 words essay. blahr. )):
but studying at np on sunday is seriously fun
damn quiet and nice environment
mayb can go another time cos it's like i can't rly study at home!

and the tv is down yet again
becos my brothers are having exams now!
and those bbss peeps are finishing their exams like this week lahr!
oh fine. wadevr. good luck for the rest of the papers ok! ((:

ytd at service watched a movie called SECOND CHANCE((:
it was a rather meaningful movie.
which portrayed quite a number of things
which we don't get to see that openly here locally,
like young kids peddling drugs,joining gangs and everythg.
it was a great movie in all.
reminded me of how long i haven caught a movie in a while.

and ytd my class also went for a celebration outing for winning the variety show
heard they went for movie, nice dinner/lunch then bowling or sthg.
hope they had fun in all though i couldn't join them.
seem like having no life after going to poly,
cos everyday just go to school and heading back home
cos home is like a stone's throw away kinda thing. haa!
haven went shopping and watch a decent movie in a while
and i SERIOUSLY wanna catch 'definitely maybe'
that kinda love story which you would anticipate the ending
and cry all over the plot as it goes kinda movie
though you may say it's bored but i rly rly rly wanna watch it!

GONNA GO SHOPPING AND WATCH MOVIE DURING HOLIDAYS! ((((:

yet another week in sch to look ahead! go gladys! ((:
jia you to the rest too!

this is life,
accept it,live with it
decline it,die with it.

`i don't have a choice
i can't let it go as you could,that easily
cos it was sthg i longed for
yet sthg my heart paid for;
not even a second chance
it was that cruel.

2008-04-27T20:51:00.000+08:00

27apr

last fri, everything turn out fine and well for the variety show((:

and IT01 got the CHAMPION!
huggs huggs. never expected it to be. but haha. sexy back+me love<33
thanks to yewkiang also for all his effort put into helping us.
and also thanks to all of IT01 for your effort & craziness that day
and i look forward to the next 3 years with you all((:

this week passed quite nicely, but loads of assignments floodin me.
sometimes i'm like stuck in this dilemma that whether i should slack a bit
or whether i should be more hardworking and aim for the good GPA results.
oh blahr. but i guess i will soon adopt to this kinda of cycle.
plus i can't really engage myself in a cca of sorts
i actually joined NYAA Chapter but i missed the first session
and it's so not like me because i'm suppose to be the kind of like
super enthu in CCA kinda person. and i'm gonna regain tht character!
perhaps ultimately GB is still my field. nt any other CCA((: haha.

next week, all those bbss peeps gonna start their mid year papers.
especially for those sec 4s, must jia you jia you k((:
and i will keep you people in prayer but then must also work hard yourself((:
at the same time, don't forsake God for that.
remember that He is above all. ((:

went blog hopping in midst of my IS assignment. got distracted of sorts.
everyone's like uber busy de lahr. and sorry to jiaen cos i could not
make it for the JJ's talentime. )):
i hate facing my laptop. can't imagine the thought of facing it for the rest
of the 3 years in my life. basically my WHOLE LIFE pls.
and i changed specs((: haha. i kinda like it. and it's been like so long
then my mum go collect it cos i was too busy to go myself(; HUGGS MUMMY<3

gonna go back and bury myself in assignments again!
and i still can't quite really grasp computing MATHEMATICS!(THE FEAR OF MY LIFE)
just let me get over and done with it(:
but surprisingly i <3 number systems(: all the 1001001010101111100000s[:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WENJIE(:
promise i din forget ur special day(:
but i missed the day to sms you.
really sorry about tht ):

That day i saw you,i just couldn’t keep myself down.though we were that short distance away, but i felt like a thousand miles away from you.looking at your hands,those that used to hold mine.looking at your eyes,those that once looked at me so deeply with love and passion.looking at you, the one that once belonged to me.i have no intentions of forgetting you.cos you’ll always be that special someone in my heart,all i wished was that you would keep in mind that memory of ours that no one else shared.[evilmonster&angel]©

2008-04-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

16apr

it's like 3rd day of school. oh wells.
i dunno how to decribe things.
everyone's asking how is poly life
definitely i guarantee that it is much better
than jc life cos i've been hearing too much complains
from my jc friends

but these few days i've been doing like self reflections of sorts
i wonder why i chose IT above everything
and why did i end up in such a course as this.
some of you might say it will be too late
to say this.
but perhaps i am not so adaptable to changes
i can't accept the change from sec sch to poly just yet
i can't forget my friends just yet
i can't get used to new friends around me
everything seemed so superficial maybe
but perhaps it is just the third day of school
so i am thinking way too much into it

but i really can't just relate to my future yet
what am i gonna do when i graduate from poly
and where am i heading from now on

today ICT had a motivational talk by some guy called martin
and i originally thought that it would be some boring after
lunch kinda talk
but to my surprise, the talk was real powerful
it was entitled "THE POWER OF ONE"
and i cried at the video of the oprah show about
a little boy who was born not as fortunate as many of us
but yet he fought his way thru his short 11yrs of life
in order to fulfill his 3 simple wishes
i am really inspired by him,seriously.
and it's really amazing how strong
the human willpower can be at times.

we nvr really saw our ONE life as important
perhaps we just live every day of our lives
as it is suppose to be
but isn't it great to be able to achieve something
memorable or great in this one life
perhaps not typical things like earning the most money
maybe a simple wish or dream coming true
which you had since young will be equally wonderful.

CHANGE IS THE ONLY CONSTANT IN THIS WORLD.
SOMEDAY,SOMEONE WILL CHANGE THIS WORLD,
WHY NOT LET THE PERSON BE YOU?

~~lost in the transition of life~~

2008-04-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

11apr

TODAY WAS THE BIG DAY((: -AAC 2008-

and everythg went well by God's grace.
weather was wonderful
GOH was awesome
sub cont. was great.
what else could i ask for.
all i cld say was great job to all AAC peeps involved
you ppl done urself proud
by putting in ur greatest effort
and giving God all the glory He deserves.
BIG THANK YOUS((:
&BIG HUGGS<33

& of cos to matt,peiru,jaslyn & jiajun
thank you for the great job in leading the boys & girls
last parade, wonderful memories for all of you.

to matt "korkor":
thank God u overcome ur nervousness and managed to conquer everythg,
you did great ok((: parade commander 08',it's rightfully yours.
to peiru:
you still secretly laughing all th way, but from start to now,
you've worked hard for every detail,
and for all the effort to the 10th,thanks.
parade2IC 08'((:
to jaslyn:
my greatest buddy, no more wrong tune of commands, never forget that faithful one time, but you look super shuai on the parade ground alrights. forever it is.
GOH commander 08' ((:
to jiajun:
yu shu shu de papa, i noe it's been tough to take care of the attendance of the yu shu shu men, but in the end everythg turned out well. great job. thanks(:
SUPPORTING CONTINGENT commander 08' ((:

lastly, hope after today all you sec 4s will start mugging like mad for the upcoming O's. this journey from now on won't be easy, but the outcome gonna be sweet,conquer it by God's grace((:

sorry i din manage to take any phtos of u ppl
ask weiyan for it. i think he took loads of them.
((:

today also saw a truck loads of ppl back for AAC
including benji daddy,ah gong sq,jiaen,
aud,joanna,jiaen,divya,deb,honcheong,
belinda,aida,evon,
weeteng,munyee,liying.
& so many more i can't rmb. sorry if i din mention ur name. got bad memory.
and of cos my gang: dara,peiling,nuoshi,koonlay,xinqi

today was my induction/orientation day you cld call it also,
but i shan't elaborate about it
not that it was not great
but it was nothing impressive to mention about
perhaps it's all because i dread that
make new friends again kinda of feeling
and i have my mentor grp aka class
proudly named 0801
and i'm gonna stay with this grp for th rest of my 3 yrs
there are only 6 girls in th class
and i've this "geeks" class kinda of feeling AGAIN
just like how we were labelled in 4e3.
ok gonna tell you more again if i find th mood
& i'm dreading school starting!

the rest was th photos i took with some of them today((:

[yu shu shu papa-jiajun((:]

[daniel erzi((:]

[fred,yaode acting super IDIOT,dan(:]

[parade markers-fiona & nicholas(:]

[fiona,matt,nic(:]

[jiaen,xinqi(:]

[matt,parade commander((: ~~&i<3thatredsash~~]

[fred(:]

[xinqi,lopez((:]

[lilin that kuku girl]

[my sweeeetest girl,jaslyn <3 her]

i wonder if he knows he is all
i think about at night
even if he can't be mine again.

2008-04-07T23:36:00.000+08:00

07apr

was just talking on the phone & smsing my didi & jian ((:
miss them loadds to the core cos so long nvr see them

today went back to sch for aac trg.
super sian to go back in the 1st place.
but khoon accompany me(:
but she was super happy to have passed by my hse area
because there were like super loads of memories for her.

today's trg was great too.
both GOH and supporting contingent did well
i believe you guys & girls will do just as well on fri.
esp to the yu shu shu(the corns),
because you all got yu shu shu papa guiding you all((:

just felt today also that matthew was like uber tired.
kinda ke lian him cos he like never got any rest
from the beginning till the end.
make me got all reminded of my year of aac
or was it ndp?!
whichever it was.
jiayou ahr(:
to matt,peiru,jas & jiajun((:

after which,met debs & honcheong at the bus stop
miss her loadds lahr. & she looked weird in her new uniform lahr.
but she had to go off real soon after posting me a super random qn.

not really in a mood for posting.
wanna go back to bbss on fri no matter what.
but got induction day @np
so gonna kick up some excuse or sthg.

why does my life pale in comparison to my friends in jc
are they still my friends?
is our friendship still there even if they started on a new life.
is getting home late at night a better thing
than rotting at home each day
i miss those days in sec sch.
those laughter,
those stories,
those days of sleeping in classes,
those times of copying homework,
those times of gossiping
of going to the toliets in btw classes.

i guess no one wants to remember those days
now that they have a even vibrant life
who told me that sec sch friends last for life
who asked me to believe in that
cos everythg in life is acting on the contrary now.

i regretted letting go
but time can't turn back

ILOVEYOU)):
be the evil monster of my life forever

2008-04-03T13:03:00.000+08:00

03apr

on tues, went to town with tingx. we went quite late though. but we shopped there for like less than 2 hrs than we left. rather crap aren't it? haa. cos she wanted to go there to shop for yul's present. then in the end she bought her a perlini white bag. quite cute de lahr. (: hope she likes it though. then we went taka to eat kfc. waited like quite long before we got a seat lahr. and there were like many of the s'pore fashion festival crew there eating also. haha. i think th event is just cool pls. perhaps also because th muttons kept recommending it on their show too.
actually wanted to walk to far east to look for clothes de, but both of us were like idiots who din know how to walk there so we gave up the idea.

on the way we had ice cream, it's like a real good treat once in a while kinda thing though. i had the peppermint choc one<3
and then we crossed roads like nobody's business. ignoring all the traffic lights and stuff. dashing across the roads like as if there was no cars.it was basically HECTIC ACTION(:

so we ended up shopping at the weirdo place called lucky plaza, it's like a maids' gathering place of sorts. and we stepped into the 3 for $10 shop. i only bought a pair of SHADES((: but i LOVE it pls<33 and the shades that she chose are like so weird lahr.haha. but she still likes it. CONCLUSION: SHE GOT WEIRD TASTE!

then ytd went for doc's appt at KKH for my heart problem. i waited for like just a while then the doctor called me in when i was about to go buy a magazine to pass time cos i thot it wld be like super long.
when i went into the rm, there was like a doctor & 2 other medical students,one guy & one girl, and i just like got inspired by them of sorts cos they look rather smart in that doc's robe or wadevr u call it.

then the female doctor examine me, saying that there is still a soft murmur but nthg great. and then proceeded to let the students have a listen of my heartbeat. it was weird,like seriously. but they concluded that they couldn't hear much.haha.then my main doc-in-charge came in thereafter. he's a joker pls. plus we shared th same surname.lol.

but he is super experienced. he hear my heartbeat for like 10 secs or so. then he was done. haa. & then he asked if i wld like to transfer to another hospital cos i was like OVER-AGED for the children's section of KKH. but he said that they cld also close one eye and let me cont to follow up there or simply discharge me cos my heart wont cause me much problem. and he even said that a 40 yr old lady is still seeking treatment like at the children's section. ((: lol.

for like 10 mins consultation, the fees was $58!
oh blahr.it's just expensive to fall sick in spore. you wld rather die. it's cheaper.
but got subsidies or sthg and it was like $22.
and for the height and weight test,
i shrunk AGAIN!!!!
AND I GAIN WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! )):
i feel so terrible with the numbers pls. irritating!

(CAMWHORED ON THE BUS BACK HOME)

(TINGX ACTING LIKE PERVERT,HAA!)

(OK, I LOVE MYSELF & MY NEW SHADES)

(ME & MUMMY ON OUR WAY TO THE HOSPITAL)

(WE CAMWHORED ON THE STREETS PLS!BUT I LIKE THIS PICTURE)

pictures of you & me,
all in my memories.

2008-03-30T18:44:00.000+08:00

30mar

125th post.

thanks to all to tagged at my blog
replied to my smses
listening to my grumbles and complains.

to DANIEL erzi &CLEO jiajia liangteh &WEIJIAN

i'm feeling a lot better now,
because i was rly feeling so down before this,
and i just cried and cried.
i went into my room,
listening to worship songs,
crying in the presence of God.
it was just awesome how some of these moments are spent.
God did comfort me.
at times I just thought,
even though I am alrdy 3+ yrs old spiritually,
I shld be able to handle these things,
but sometimes I will also wanna act like a child,
fighting for attention of my heavenly Daddy,
wanting to take notice and care for me,
and to be the apple of His eyes.

for people who thought i was crazy,
cause it seems that i was talking to mid air like i was mentioning above,
no i wasn't, i repeat: I WASN'T.
cause God is real, and HE REIGNS(:
ask me more if you wanna know.
it's just amazing.

Dear Daddy,
I hope this new revelation i have is not based on a one time event/thing,
nor is it out of a sudden rush of emotions,
i want this to continue,
i want this to be my lifestyle and my desire.
i just want You to reign in every dark past and every of the future.
teach me each day perhaps who I could pray for,
or like what bro rx says, who I could encourage.

IJNIP,
Amen!

ps: i still wanna go cycling very badly(:

it's history, so let it go
holding on only brings bitterness.

2008-03-30T01:38:00.000+08:00

29mar.

why is the monday blue kinda feeling coming into me though it is a saturday night?

today i hesistated before the alter call,
and i chose to respond.
each time i hesitated,
i just felt something tugging at the deep corner of my heart.
and i dunno what is the thing that made me hesitated today.
i just felt way out of place today after service.

being God's child ain't easy after all,
there will be trials,
but of course there will be blessings.
i really wonder what i should do.

perhaps Satan keep bringing back into memories all the dark past i've had.
and i got trapped in that vicious cycle once and again.

perhaps it was my fault someone i cared for backslided,
perhaps it was my fault that i cared too much bout someone,
perhaps it was my fault that i couldn't let go of past memories,
perhaps everything that occured was my fault.

why am i getting all emo-ed up?

maybe some cycling will help in my venting of frustration
that i'm feeling inside of me right now
but tmr's outing to ecp is cancelled because only some people
can make it tmr.
just making things worse of worse.

going ecp will make me emo make i guess,
cos every time i go to the beach,
it's not for nice picnics,
but to sit by the seas quietly by myself
and allow memories to gush right back up to me.

i don't mind if the weather's bad,
rather i could sit in the rain,
so that no one can see.

could i just beg someone to go cycling with me,
so that my thoughts won't start to run wild again?
i thot didi will be the best person,
but everyone's giving me that "i'm busy,pls don't bother me" kinda feeling.
so there's no one to entertain me now.

i'll get better after a good night sleep perhaps.
i'm too tired out today.
yes i am.

i knew i won't be able to get over so quickly

2008-03-27T22:32:00.001+08:00

27mar

just another random post

i love sitting at the top spot at my favourite playground.
under the dim street lamp light,
i trembled due to the surrounding temperature.
but i seemed to be able to see things under the light
with a clearer view.
though you're missing from my life,
but i understand that i still have to
live and stand strong.
i realised that i'll do just fine,
just fine without you.
sometimes,i just enjoy these moments alone
thinking into empty space,
listening to the tune replaying in my ears,
looking at the passerby rushing home or elsewhere.

i don't look upon couples with envy,
thinking about why you aren't by my side,
cos the love of this world has given me too much false hope
too much miseries and tears.
so these simple pure times of silent peace will do me fine,
just enough to pass me by the complicated life i'm leading.

just one of her random thoughts running thru her mind.

2008-03-18T13:32:00.000+08:00

18mar

today got my laptop alrdy(:
dunno why in the end i still got the acer brand instead
when i was alrdy so determined to get the fujitsu one.
i guess it's cos the acer promoter approached me first.
haa. now i think back, although the capability is like the same and stuff
but i still prefer made in japan rather than china de bahr.
pray hard that my laptop will be a right choice
and that it will not crash and do me right for the nxt 3 yrs to come(: (:

but the design of the laptop i quite like it though
the skin is like black colour
rather stylish and simple
i bought the same laptop as tingx
and her brother said the compatibility is about the same as the fujitsu one
i initially wanted to buy
so i guess now it is up to me to protect and take care of it well
it cost like $1605
so thanks to mum for buying that for me also(x

back to life,
last sun went to cartel with jo & sy
treat jo to lunch
haa. he looked quite weird in those polo tee & skinny
but still so long never see him, still miss him lahrrsss
glad tht i cld have a gathering like this.
although it is only like eating and talking
but it's these moments that i treasured rather loadds thou.
a pity that someone couldnt come along,
otherwise i can proudly name it a JMGS meeting(: oh wells.

the thing i regretted most was that i din take phtos of the food
and of us also. haa.
jo ate dory fish+grill chix+spag
while i ate grill chix+spag
all super yummy de.
and jo shared his dory fish with me
i have no simplest idea what is so nice about dory fish?!

today passed tingx her bdae present,
hope she like it, but thats part one only
still got part two to her present.
another time then pass to her(: haa.

i'm officially quitting on th 26th on this month(: haa.
i'm happy pls. finally i can get some freedom and enjoyment

i wanna go cycling,learn how to swim, go shopping, go to terminal 3,
go to sentosa, slim down & gorge myself at the same time.
sounds interesting, but i need to find people to go with me?!
anyone as free can come look for me,
i will be more than willing to.
becos sch is starting soon! take the chance to have the fun in my life(:

enrolment is coming up on the 21st,
yes, it is a good friday holiday
i'm kinda scared cos i'm carrying colours
i dun wanna embarrass myself nor the company.
God, help me that i can troop the colours properly
that i can do the proper drills and tht
i can rmb all the steps we are suppose to take on the parade ground.
(:

take care people(:
till next time then.

np here i come><

2008-03-06T01:06:00.001+08:00

05MAR

the enrolment package arrived at my home(:
was happy at its presence but well
i am confused by its contents also.
finally after visiting the np web & cpf web & some help from mum,
got a slightest idea of what the whole payment & enrolment process to poly
is all about. seriously a bit troublesome as compared to sec sch where
everythg is done for you.

recently i've been busy with work,enrolment & brigade stuff.
last fri was first parade. wore full u back to bbss
haa. so suay. met with siang and a few others from jjc.
then i think he also amused with me still wearing full u pls.

i think its like the stress of work or sthg.

been gorging on chocolates,sweets & sundaes.
and i'm filled with like sugar,caramel,fats,lipids,chocolates,powder
loadds of calories,fats and carbohydrates.
thats a lot isn't it? (:
ok, trust me, eating strawberry sundae at 11 in the night,
gorging on sweets/chocolates/cookies/biscuits at 1am in the morning
is seriously FATTENING! but who cares alrights. (x

and i'm getting excited at the idea of notebooks,
be it apple/imac/norm notebook,
here i come. wee hees (:
but owning it is no great deal, it's the maintaining that matters thou.
there's IT fair going on soon. haa. so wanted to visit it.
and i think i'm so gonna get tempted by the variety of notebooks there.

today ewen called me to go sentosa tmr. tell me early eh girl. nid to arrange schedule cos of work mahr. sorry ahr. really wanted to meet u girls also de.

but also got arrange to go celebrate jo's bdae. i suggested gg to the zoo.haa haa.
been rather long since ewen's bdae that i went and i wanna visit all the animal enclosure pls. haa. so gonna go there early in the morning.
& go for all the animal shows. (x
it's a JMGS meet up.haa.
hope we can finalise the date soon.
and i'm expecting cheese sandwiches (x

GONNA GO OFF. WORKING EARLY SHIFT. blahr.
take care ppl. misses<3

much loves,
GLADYS(:

2008-02-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

26feb

finally found the mood to blog again.
today working night shift so got nothing much to do now.
had a uber long chat with sy ytd night on msn, talked a lot about everythg.
got reminded of what i learned during surmon last sat,
ps dan was talking about caring and loving the ppl arnd u with sincerity,
not with hidden agendas or wadevr.
rly learn to treasure ppl arnd me a lot cos i noe i wont have them by my side always & forever.
dont wait till the time when u realise that somethg is wrong that u take action to try to make up,cos everythg will be too late then.

last sat before cell grp, i brought some of the girls to the red cross home for the disabled, to check out the environment for their service learning to be done during the badge camp
and now as i reflect upon what i saw there, i seriously felt blessed.
when i was there,i did cry, i guess it was myself? or was it God's compassion and love that was flowing thru me.

i just felt that we seemed to be whining and complaining about so much things in our lives, but did we not stop to notice that there are more ppl out there that leads lives even more pathetic than we deemed our lives to be?
looking at the patients in the home, they are either mentally or physically disabled, all they do is that they could spend their time on their beds or perhaps enjoy some music or activities. they can't do much. and some when i talked to them, they dont even understand me.
but of cos there is this guy called christopher,who could memorise dates and tell u the day of the date u mention to him. amazing isnt it?
and another one or two that could even speak like you and me, but are physically disabled,but they still go to special schools to learn like us.

and it really struck me that God loves these people too.
treasure your lives people, cos at least you are able bodied and can do things you want to do.

and all along i had this thing in me to want to be a volunteer in a home, and i did mention this to my mum before. she thought it was just one of my sudden passion which will die out soon after. but i was really thinking if i could even go once or twice a week to the home, just to even spend some time with the people there, even if it means feeding/chatting/reading/playing/doing craftwork with them. i dont mind perhaps even.

say i'm being random again.. but perhaps going to a home once in a while will make you reflect and realise what a blessed life we lead. the feeling is just overwhelming me so much that i dunno why as well.

soon, gonna start on yet another chapter of my life, studying IT in ngee ann. (:
my interest field so i wanna excel in it.
my birthday wish is to top my sch and go on stage to give a speech?
seems like a faraway dream to achieve isnt it?
waiting for some package to arrive before i start the huge purchase of books and laptop(:
and then it's orientation and back to normal school life for me(:
everyone going to jc has alrdy started on their routine cycle of school, i can't wait too<3
wonder why i am getting all excited over poly life? ><

till nxt time then,take care ppl.

HAPPY 17TH TO AISYAH,MY HORNY! (:

2008-02-15T11:51:00.000+08:00

15feb08<33

ytd i spent my vday 08 with my two dearest sweethearts besties<3 -weijian & tingx-
they celebrated my bdae for me in advance, they treated me to sakura @sci centre & then they bought a heart-shaped cake for me also. then we borrowed lighter from auntie beekhoon and celebrated at the uber dark place outside mac. and then we went to the busstop & waited for like so long, and meanwhile a gd chance for cam-whoring sessions. we took loads of photos that i cld tell a story about it. haha. but we had a difficult time trying to find a gd spot for us to take phtos. and a diff time to take the 3 of us tgt also.

i had loadds of food till i almost bust my stomach. haha. we went bascially everythg and anythg.from udon to rice, soft drinks to ice cream, fried finger food to chicken chop. & i enjoyed the salmon and unagi also. (:

though it was simple, but i appreciated them a lot. cos they spent their time & effort. we had a lot of fun during dinner,talked & crapped loadds of stuff. it was a nice gathering.
and it really made me think that God was awesome to have given me friends, and friendship that lasted so sweetly.

HUGGS TO BOTH OF YOU(: I LOVE YOU TWO! <33
really thank you,and i appreciate all of those you two have done.

[me & tingx]

[me & wj]

[three of us]

[i'm 10...]

[plus 7.. which is superb 17]

2008-02-13T23:40:00.000+08:00

130208

the MS HONG QT go post my ugly photo & a uber long message for me on her blogg & yet still claiming that she is not mushy to me.

to AH HONG:
ya lahr, you've got a stupid fren who was touched by your msg & even got a gd laugh over it. and i was TOUCHEDDDDD by it, YESSSSSS, i was i was! ok. on my birthday i will write back everythg to you ok. (: LOVVVVVEEEEESSSS YOUUUUUUU LOADDDDDSSSS!!!!!!!

my boss,auntie lihua,a bit blurr, thot that i wanted off for 14th & 15th when i only wanted 15th. but in the end i got 2 days leave in a row. so weehees! (: good also cos i can relax & enjoy these 2 days. (: thank you to all my bosses. (: haa!

guiyen told me tht she alrdy took leave beforehand to come for my bdae even b4 i mentioned it. haha. so sweettt huh. XD then tingx did it for me also(: all the postings on her bloggie. oh man. (: i'm falling in love with my friends. HUGGS!

it's gonna be VDAY soon.rahhrrr! HAPPY VDAY IN ADVANCE(: <3 be it spending it with your sweetheart or your friends, in this day of love, freely express your love for your beloved ones <3 & i got reminded of those golden wrapper roses tht jasper used to make out of 'rocher' wrappers(:
i see this whole lot of people rushing for chocolates,sweets & flowers today. the guys queueing up @ the florist to get a stalk or two or even a bouquet for their sweethearts. and also the other guys cracking their brains at mini toons thinking of what to get for this day. it's an interesting sight to catch thou. heart-melting isn't it? (:

i'm approximately 24 hrs away from superb 17 like what guiyen says. getting ready to say goodbye to all the memories of sweet 16. i will miss those memories, but they will be inscribed on my mind(:

can't wait for tmr to eat dinner with tingx & wj, and friday to spend with the rest,dont ps me last minute ok. why is my 17th so specially significant to me that i wanna give it so much attention? (:

13th,14th & 15th feb, everyday a different meaning, but everyday a same someone i wanted to spend all these days with.

ps:i regarded you as my everything,
but you regarded me as your nothing.
if our paths hadn't crossed
& got separated again.

2008-02-11T20:21:00.000+08:00

11feb.

another 4 days! haha.
think gonna celebrate @kbox on tht day with currently my grp de ppl plus wx & tton.
wonder whats gonna happen though.

cny as usu, nthg much to do except go for visitations. plus on 2nd day,ting & kerby come my hse eat steamboat, had loadds of fun cos of our jokes & everythg. it was real fun thou. haha. (: ask kerby what he did please. after that the 3 of us plus my brother went to watch night movie-KUNGFU DUNK!! (: some parts of it kinda lame, jay's still as yaya. but overall not bad ahr. now the only pity is that haven watched cj7 cos no one's free to watch with me or timing's always clash lahr. ):

and for the past 4 days i kept munching & eating like a pig, eat & sit and play. i guess i'm gonna gain like countless amounts of fats.ok, forget it, cos it's all alrdy in my body.

today worked again,mp came to look for me & she just got stranded there like kuku watching me work cos she pon chem class. and then later after a while, she stood there with an old chang kee curry puff & then she went back home. uber lame but she still did that.crazy girl lahr. (: but i still love her lahr. haha(:

today i bought a new pair of shoes, and i passed by the flower shop in bpp, saw this couple cup, mickey & minnie de, so wanted to buy it please. haha. i <3 mickey. minnie just extra cos it comes in a pair.hehe. oops.but i think it's like super ex de cos it's like the v day promos or sthg.

today i was listening also to 987 then they were talking about the spore flyer and about the vday promos, whereby ppl willing to spend like 200 plus to ride on the ferris wheel thingy. wah. i dunno shld say is romantic or waste of $$. it depends on different perspective i guess.

cant wait for this thurs and fri, thurs to celebrate with ting &wj & fri to celebrate with the rest.haha. (: i wish upon the stars that someone will surprise me with a dedication on the muttons show on 987.everytime they got this segment for ppl to call in to call another fren who happens to be celebrating their bdae.haha. cool right?!

flowers,soft toys & chocolates dont sound appealing to me cos it's either too useless,temporary,collects dust or it only helps on my weight gaining. perhaps psp/radio dedication/loadds of mickey mse merchandises sounds nicer to me.haha (x or even something simple that u handmade or made effort & time to prepare, thats even more priceless than anythg bought with money.

till next time then, gotta go. take care ppl. & i'm also looking forward to 19 feb cos it's the release of the posting results. best of luck in advance to all, and late greetings for CNY. <3 loves loadds. &&& BUY ME PRESENTS ALRIGHTS(:

on my special day, all i wanted was to spend it with the special you.

ps:when will i ever break free from those thoughts of you
you lead me on into this game of love
and left me now in such misery business.
thanks for the memories
even if they weren't meant to last.

2008-02-05T11:05:00.000+08:00

5feb

official 10 days countdown to HAPPY 17TH(:

told my group tht we're celebrating at kbox on the 15th(:
try & make it ok? i'll try to make sure that the timing is suited for everyone.
hmmm. why am i like begging for people to come celebrate my birthday with me?
but still, i just wanna see you girls again. (: those who have brought me joy, laughter & love for the past 4 yrs ><
(but if u all have other suggestions of going anywhere else,tell me ok?)

nothing major been happening in my life, just work and more work.visit me when u have the time,but just dont make a fuss about queueing up cos there's simply too many ppl these few days. come aft cny(:

basically thats about all(: and HAPPY CNY in advance, receive loadds of hong baos(:

tell me why my heart still says i love you;

ps: just like a tatoo, i'll always have you.
keep bleeding love till it drains me.
i loved you.
i love you.
i'm still loving you.

2008-01-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

28jan

[[my dear dear gladys darlingg sister, no matter what happens, i'll be here for you. though i'm really very unwilling, which is not true, i'll never leave you to suffer the pain alone. just dial up the 8 numbers and i'll be there for you <33> ]] quoted from ting's blog.

thank God for awesome friends, esp close ones. friends spell the word LOVE correctly and show it out besides God who shows His perfect love.
they promise to accompany you & they do.
they promise to spend time with you & they do.
they promise to lend their shoulders when needed & they will.

appreciate friends & love them. cos they noe when you're down and out,some give advice,some keep quiet just to listen to your stupid grumbles,some feel the feelings you do.some show their care thru a little sms,greeting or comment.some give you a call once in a long while.some just talk crap with you online or over the phone.whichever friend you're acting as, i appreciate you, cos you're my friend.

ever heard this? friends are siblings God forget to add on to you. i wonder how true is that. though we do not share the same blood but we adore each other more than ever,sometimes even more than our own siblings.

thanks to tingx for these 2 days,my dear,BIG THANK YOU(:
some stuff we do not need to spell it out,cos we both know.
appreciate you for who you are. HUGGS! LOVES<3
we chose the same course in the end, not on purpose,but hopefully we get into the same course though,then its 7 yrs in a row for us(:

in the end after endless times of flipping the jae booklet, its IT course from np and sp as my first 2 choices. ultimately back to my interest field, something i hope to excel in the future and hopefully what God has in plan for me in this great aspect of my life. hopefully i get into it,if it's His will if not get into whichever i have choosen.
its like 3 more months to sch reopen,woah,seems long but wont be too long though.nxt month's my 17th(: so ppl, most probably celebrating at kbox? any better ideas?(suggest pls?!) not everyone tgt, mayb with two diff grps. but still, wadever u are having on that day,odac/cca/work/play/dates,kick it aside for me,wont you?loves.

sorry to my daddy,cos i din choose jc in the end. i knew you told those advice for my good, but maybe it's cos i wanted to do what i liked.jc i can try, but i'm worried i'll struggle uber badly there. lets hope now i can get into top 5% of the course in poly then can go uni. (:

HAPPY __TH BIRTHDAY TO MY CUZZIE,MELODY! (x

every word,an added burden.
being naive for trusting in lies.

ps:it hurts deeply.the betrayal of trust & love. crying uncontrollably &tearing unknowingly each time the music & memories resound in my mind.those promises pound at my door of my heart each time i got reminded of them.it was a simple reason & a true heart of love from the very beginning.

2008-01-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

27jan

looked at the jae booklet for 2158245824579259 times today. now just pondering btw choosing which course as my first.
time's running out. tmr's the cut off date.

today din went to work, went to the doc, dunno what sickness did i get but i got 2 days of mc. ):

this period of time is tough to get by.this transition period.

a forgotten memory;it takes time

i remember eating at subway,reading & watching sunset at the bookshop,standing by the stairway,talking at the playground,singing by the poolside.only memories,just the memories alone.

ps: crying like a fool, played like an idiot.but i chose to dwell even if nothing's gonna change,even if life's so short.

2008-01-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

17jan

WESTLIFE-SWEAR IT AGAIN
I wanna know
who ever told you I was letting go
the only joy that I have ever known
girl, they're lying

just look around
and all of the people that we used to know
have just given up, they wanna let it go
but we're still trying

so you should know this love we share was never made to die
I'm glad we're on this one way street just you and I just you and I

I'm never gonna say goodbye
cuz I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
and I swear it all over again and I
I'm never gonna treat you bad
cuz I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
and I swear it all over again
all over again

some people say
that everything has got its place in time
even the day must give way to the night
but I'm not buying
cuz in your eyes
I see a love that burns eternally
and if you see how beautiful you are to me
you'll know I'm not lying

sure there'll be times we wanna say goodbye
but even if we try
there are something's in this life won't be denied
won't be denied
I'm never gonna say goodbye
cuz I never wanna see you cry
I swore to you my love would remain
and I swear it all over again and I I'm never gonna treat you bad
cuz I never wanna see you sad
I swore to share your joy and your pain
and I swear it all over again

the more I know of you, is the more I know I love you,
and the more that I'm sure I want you forever and ever more
and the more that you love me, the more that I know
oh that I'm never gonna let you go
gotta let you know
that I
I'm never gonna say goodbye (Im never gonna say goodbye)
cuz I never wanna see you cry (I never wanna see you cry)
I swore to you my love would remain
and I swear it all over again and I (swear it all over again, and I)
I'm never gonna treat you bad (I never wanna treat you bad)
cuz I never wanna see you sad (I never gonna see you sad)
I swore to share your joy and your pain (oh no, oh no)
and I swear it all over again
all over again
all over again
and I swear it all over again.

an old song,such promising lyrics.

ps:if all that was sung was all that was promised.

2008-01-16T14:04:00.000+08:00

16jan

no work today, absolutely happy and relaxed sitting at home blogging.
for the past week, many ppl go disturb me at bpp. includes the almost daily visitors like tton and mp, some random visits by ying2, kidd and yuchen. (appreciate kidd for d sweets n sms,much loves)

ytd had a uber long random chat w my beloved ting till almost 3am. girls talk is probably the greatest reasons for rising phone bills. haha. hmm, but i rly thank her for listening to all my complains and crap about all my life and stuff, and she's the one i'll automatically tell all my troubles, worries and secrets too. despite that we dont meet up everyday, but our r/s is always there. thanks my dearest(: you make up for the fact of some 'mei liang xin' de

last fri went for the cca orientation @ bbss. din go for the actual thing, only stayed for a while cause i had to go for work. but i rly missed everything about school. (:

o's results releasing soon, everyone's getting up and out about it. i cannot imagine the scene that day in the hall when everyone gets their results, like it's a deja vu kinda thing, when we see the previous batch getting their results and *poof* it's our turn now.

reading up a book 'captivating' which ying2 lend me. girls shld seriously go read them, exclusively for you, it's like tailored made for girls/women. thou i only read the first chapter, but it's a powerful book. thanks ying2(:

till next time, gonna blog again, get engaged with all your busy lives ppl, everyone is doing it.jia you(: and i rly miss you ppl (x

it's just so superficial,
adding on the burdens to the overloaded mind.

ps:imissedyou ):
& everything.

2008-01-11T10:32:00.000+08:00

changed blogskin.dunno why this random skin. dunno why those random thoughts. guess i'm just as random like i am anyday.

and i just thought i'm fat,ugly, stupid and wadevr you use to describe me. if you can't appreciate it,stay away from me. but i believe one day, God will find me one person to appreciate, cos I'm precious in His eyes.

blahr. i'm just random-ing. too tired out by work that i no longer want to work any longer. just say i miss sch AGAIN. everyone seems to have a new vibrant jc life, no one wishes to think about past memories, everyone carries on with new life and create new memories. alrights, wonder whats getting on with me today?

there's a ug council bbq on the 19th and a ug members bbq on the 26th,at diff venues for both. those who can go, go alrights, let me see your faces before i forget them and before you all carry on with your future. i will appreciate that a lot.

getting stupid-ier by each day, that i can't even calculate simple math when i'm working as a cashier.can't calculate the change for a customer & got laughed off for that. blahr.pass by bpp ntuc, say hi to me if you see me alrights(:

results coming out,people changing by the days,life changing drastically. i guess thats it about life.nothing is constant,except for change itself.

the melody of the sad tune kept replaying,
the feeling is not right.

2008-01-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Bridge)
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

this is the song

2008-01-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008! (:(:

din go anywhere for countdown wadevr, was tired after one day of random work w nuo shi @ nan hua sec bookshop. tmr going to work again.it's tough job and crap pay,trust me!

hate the feeling that everyone's going to school except me, i only like school when everyone's going. i'm missing everyone of class 2007[: rmb those days when the first day of sch seemed so exciting. seeing those nerdy sec 1s while on the bus, tucking their shirts uber in, pulling their socks uber high, wearing their ties becos they din noe when is tie day. that was the fun part of going to school also.missing waking up at 6am,trying hard not to miss the bus to sch,missing the sch bell for morning assembly,missing the teachers,mrs kee's super long talk,choosing seats in the new classrooms, gossiping with friends, classes with unexpected teachers. thats so much of school vibrance life.

those gg to back to sch wont feel wad i felt, thinking tht i'm crazy to like sch,but trust me,put urself in my shoes and u'll feel how i felt.i only realised it like now?work is good cos there's pay but it's uber boring and sian after time passes, and it is equally tiring as waking up at 6am to go to school.

say i'm EMO wadever, i'm fine,but I MISS SCHOOL! (:

perhaps our sheet of paper will be empty as well.
empty without memories,
empty without love.

2007-12-29T17:14:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR COMING SOON!

finally got back the laptop to post on my blog.
haven planned any new yr resolution yet.
so fast that one year had passed.
going to look for a job soon,maybe with nuo shi
otherwise i'm gonna rot at home.
everyone's gg jc to do the tryout for the nxt 3 wks
oh wells. i shall dwell myself in work to earn more money then.

changed my hp to w580i.the black colour.
everyone seems to get that phone as well
but the white one so the one i preferred.

anyway, went to east coast on 26 dec
to have a gathering with some of the e3 frens
everyone's changed aft graduation
oh wells. thats life
but it was fun lahr.
cycled in the rain, got dumped into the sea(blahrs),
ate burger king, talked loads with my clique,
it was rather sad that not everyone turned up lahr.
but it was enjoyable still

nothing's much in my life.
gonna start getting busy soon
take care pple.
have fun in your new year pple
all the best yahr.
and belated merry xmas too!!!
i'll miss you pple k.
LOOOAAAADDDDSSSS!!!

let us continue writing the story till the end of time
the measure of love is endless.
no longer do i hold the key,
i hold the heart.

2007-12-22T14:38:00.000+08:00

the date of the post is wrong!!dunno how to edit it, but anyhow i post it on 22nd dec alrights(:

today's xmas bash. haha. gtg have fun and enjoy le(: dara, guiyen and nuo shi coming with me!!!

YI camp got too much stuff to talk about le.no time to post now.shall post it on another time(:

anw,i dropped my hp into the washing machine and it was spoilt! blahr. but now, God gave me an early xmas gift, so i'm going to get my new hp now!! wahahaz. i dunno what hp i have in mind but i am finally gonna change one! yupp.

take care pple. hope you'll have fun this upcoming xmas! and receive heaps of presents from your loved ones. but it's a joy to give as well.

indulge in the season of love
in midst of all the uncertainty

2007-12-13T23:55:00.001+08:00

131207<3

congratz to all who have gotten their pae results today. i believe everyone i knew was happy to have gotten their choice school(:

i'll miss you pple badly):
please like show me urr faces in my dreams or sthg.
everyone suddenly ask me to go out and see them
ahh. i miss everybody too<3

now and forever,
you are the only one for me

2007-12-11T14:36:00.000+08:00

let the pictures speak of the thousand words of the time i spent in BUA YAI,THAILAND,mission trip 07'

(yungying & me, she's such a sweet one!)

(the sweetest & caring guy ever,my son-daniel)

(my family pet-"biscuit")

(the funny&cute&small eyes guy-mr san mao/samuel, great to have known him!)

(spastic-ness comes naturally with this 2 arnd,desmond&alex&me)

(the hero/leader of bua yai, bro sunil)

(some part of my dorm, blessed with fridge & heater, made many envious!haa)

(mission trip team 07')

(my roommates,left-chang yen,right-yilin, exclude those two behind!)

(my mission trip family portrait.lol!)

(aren't they cute? they're the twins,MAI & MIN)

(some girls in my teaching class)

(more of them)

(and yet more!)

MORE PICTURES TO BE UPLOADED(:

2007-12-09T20:40:00.000+08:00

i went to the doctor today, rahhr. and i was diagnosed with STOMACH FLU. simply no idea whats going on with me and my system. blahr. HATE IT ):
and i can't take any food, so i'm officially on liquid diet cos doctor says i can only take sweet fluids. if i eat anything, i'll just throw up. the feeling is just terrible lahr..

i miss school days suddenly; getting emo over those school day memories and stuff where i cld see my besties. oh yahr. i miss everyone. yes, i do.

can't blog more. gonna go rest before mum starts nagging. see you pple around. =)

no promises are better than empty ones
dont say your words lightly
cos they mean a whole world of difference to me
forgetting & pretending all the hurts
that are hidden so well

2007-12-05T21:41:00.001+08:00

WELCOME BACK GLADYS!
i'm tired now. just touched down this evening from thailand. will update you pple bout the trip once i fulfilled my sleep.haha. sorry yah. nid some time to myself also. hope you pple have been fine. take care. enjoy. period.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHENGQUAN & ALEX.

if you really meant what you say,
you noe what you shld do
dont leave me in a state of confusion,
helpless.

2007-11-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

post #101

the recycling project to me was a great success,we managed to raise $750(considering the fact that each kg of white paper is $0.25 and newspaper was $0.17) so d committee decided that half will go to the school and d other half for leonard. cos the initial plan was to help the school raise funds, and by right we shld give sthg back to sch too. if not for the sch, we wouldn't be wad we are today right? (: and lastly, thanks to all who have donated all their stuff out, esp to those who made effort to bring them down to the colln points, i sincerely appreciate it. BIG THANK YOU! =)

oh wells, secondly, i cant make it for 2e1 chalet at all. simply no time. i also sincerely apologise to all d 2e1 peeps. i really appreciate d effprt put in, esp to ewen and nuo shi whom did the coordination this time round. i really thank u girls+guys.<33

and tmr going off to thailand for missions, it's the annual MISSION TRIP 07'. this time is under anne and munkidd. initially was under elton(mr racist cum God obsession),though i only had a short time interacting with him but all in all, i can conclude him bring a nice guy. he's got some probs with his lungs or sthg. hopefully when we come back he'll out of hospital. (: but still, it's new team and new dynamics. i'm expecting fun and laughter(: going to some province called buay yai,dunno wer it is, but if u guys cld,keep me in prayers as well(: huggs!

so take good care my frens in spore, i'll miss you pple. be back on sq's bdae(5 dec) so meanwhile, miss me too(: love you pple<3

ps: i cant see my tagboard, it's like error seen on my com, so if u pple did post, i'm really sorry i cant reply them.but thanks for tagging though(:

the feeling is a load of nonsense confusion
Lord, tell me what to do;
is this some wish coming true from the devil?
it's so true that i'm scared of it.

2007-11-21T01:07:00.000+08:00

[UNFORGETTABLE <3 of my life;JMGS!]

[deyan+me;i dunno how i got linked to him but random shot]

[guiyen+me]

[ex head prefect+prom queen+me]

[shengquan(in shock of state) +me]

[bb+gb? mark+me+xinqi+yewsiang]

[mr yewsiang and ms gladys]

[frens since dunno when;koonlay+me]

[princess jiaen+me;she's pretty pls!]

[didi& me;nvr regret knowing this red nose guy]

[funny joseph+me]

[mark+me]

[meiping+quek+me;physics><]

[benji daddy+me]

[my fav monkey tcher,mrs goh+meiping+me]

[joel+me]

[meiping+me+sq+joel]

[me+shao+meiping]

[meiping+me+weng rong]

[me+daddy+meiping]

[me+meiping+dara; p.s:dara is pretty lar,mp too(:]

[spastic xiaodidi zhihao+me+meiping]

[my suspicious relationship boy friend,weijian]

[my laogong,mr triton chan kar king! -my intended boy-]

[ven+ting+yul+me+meiping]

[bestiies<3 love her, HONG QIAOTING]

[sisters forever<3 meiping+me]

[my 2e1 gang;]

[my fave hangouts]

2007-11-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

4e3 chalet.

happy/sad?
define it for me.class bonding? i wonder why there isn't much...

1st day check in.
tired out. prepared for bbq. basically d same situation as in e1 chalet.
night went on. din get much sleep cos basically no ones wanna sleep except for some. and me and deyong end up sleeping outside d area between d two rooms. blahr.wadevr nots. but i really appreciate. mei was sick thereafter and i really pity him cos he seemed uber unwell yet hanged on. sorry mei, cos i made u end up sleeping at that place which u din get to rest well.

2nd day
morning i woke up kinda later than others. they went for breakfast, i went outside to sleep at the balcony.later got woke up and couldn't sleep thereafter. late morning,some pple went cycling. no roller blades were available. then ate subway for lunch. aftnn went to arcade. saw some super cool experts at their game. and then went cycling. mp came along. but she din wan to cycle. so she ran and i cycled. we went to d playgrd and watched d seas. cam-whored and wrote our names and d beach b4 going off. at night, i packet food for the people, i wasn't feeling too gd perhaps i drank too much of 100 plus str aft cycling... then slept thru till 8 plus. ate a few mouths of porridge for dinner. blahr. was feeling depressed, mp tagged along to d beachside with me again,though she was super duper tired i could see. sorry girl! then felt much better with some jolly sandy cos gong tuo din come down to buy alcohol and mp din allow me to drink. but its just d 5% alcohol kinda fruit wine which i tasted b4 from jasper, and it's just like fruit juice i shld say?

3rd day
most pple went off to sch for pae briefing super early. in d end at check in, only left me,joel and weng rong. nevertheless, i recycled some stuff and went off to brigade mtg and everything went on till i reached home at 8 plus.. tiring! period.

will upload d fotos at prom and chalet(very little) asap. sorry pple!

thanks for all d sweet last memories.but as time passes, they'll leave me and not hold me back.empty promises hurts more than giving nothing. iloveyou;

2007-11-15T02:45:00.000+08:00

GRAD NITE O7 (:

wonderful night.basically cam-whored the whole evening. i din look like myself at all cos i went for d makeover thingy,and i thought i looked weird. but i kinda like my hair cos it was sprayed brown/bronze you call it and straightened. nice>< but d makeup thingy,err. haha. i guessed out of the $50 paid i wasted like half of it cos weeteng's sis help me make my face so that the makeup is not so exaggerating. prom nite was like go there and make a joke outa myself? haha. dunno. but i had fun although half d time i was outside the ballrm taking pictures and stuff. but i really love my class, my friends and my cohort(: huggs<3

congrats to annkhay & edmund for being crowned prom queen & king(:

it was real fun although i went home after that, but it was tiring..and well, all in all i just had fun.period.and it was d first time in 4 years that i sung the school song super loudly although it looked kinda unglam and stuff. but who cares, its like d last time,sadly to say.

and i'm now a graduate of BBSS. i'll miss d tchers and school(:

now my simple wish fulfilled,
but i learn to yearn for more of it
gentleness and unspoken feelings like never before
if i could,let time stop in the picture forever

2007-11-12T01:37:00.000+08:00

just a random thought;a random post...

lovers are just there to break our hearts during their absence,
but friends are there to heal our hearts in their presence.

看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近，我却抱不到
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药
就算放开，能不能别没收我的爱...

2007-11-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

Your Love Life Secrets Are

Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love.

Although you may have been hurt before, you tend to bring very little scars into new relationships.

You prefer a quirky, unique person to be your lover. You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back.

In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm.

You have a hard time ending relationships, even if the other person says it's over.

Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed

You are Milk Chocolate

A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds.
You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life.
Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.

What Kind of Chocolate Are You?

2007-11-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

taken from joys' blog. read it and found it very meaningful.was kinda weeping while reading.

women;its exclusively for you(:

[[Tears is God's exclusive gift for women to use when needed.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure she carries,or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes,because thats the doorway to her heart-the place where love resides.]]

perhaps all the ladies should be proud that they are born to be one.

3 more papers to go(: <3

DO SUPPORT THE RECYCLING TEAM ON THE 23RD NOV,FROM 11AM-3PM BY BRINGING DOWN ALL YOUR UNWANTED PAPERS,TEXTBKS OR NEWSPAPERS TO THE VARIOUS COLLECTION POINTS NEAREST TO YOUR ESTATE/HOME.THE LOCATIONS OF COLLECTIONS POINTS WILL BE MADE KNOWN AT A LATER DATE. ANY QNS PLEASE SMS/CALL/MSN/EMAIL ME. AND DO SPREAD THE WORD AROUND TO ALL YOUR FRIENDS IN/OUT OF SCHOOL. TAKE PART IN THE GREEN MOVEMENT & DO YOUR PART TO SAVE THE EARTH! THANKS A LOT[:

2007-09-21T00:55:00.000+08:00

more to be uploaded later(:

very happy that i can post today. and today is a happy day thus i decided to post.today we had career workshop(: and me and mp very happy cos our whole class wore office outfit to school. was taken aback but super happy de(: today just passed as it is(: uploaded pictures which speaks of a thousand words. and me and mp had our first pool game today.kinda love that game as well.

the coaches at the workshop was marvelous esp coach david who practically joked thru the whole session, (he can seriously consider being an entertainer or clown of sorts,he's got the looks and personality) and his DISC profiling shld be the same as me which is a high I person, but i'm more of I/S which is mixed of both(: and i have my fren,meiping to complement me which is she is a S/C.thus i usu do the talking while she listens(: haha.

today just's a great day,school's been great,then it was subway lunch(yippies and hoorays x3) followed by a new yet fun game of pool then home sweet home and posting now(: despite the exams and stuff, it's been so long since i felt happy with such events esp my class (:(: thanks guys(:

loves wearing office outfit too, with exceptions of the high heels and the super sweatiness of wearing those outfits, other than those, i'm seriously fine with office wear then sch uniform(:

<3 MY GANG

<3 JMGS

<3 MY E3 FAMILY

some things are easiest to understand when they are left unsaid
no matter how little the words
how far the distance
the silent friendship is still there

2007-08-07T20:41:00.000+08:00

te quiero

je vous aime

Ich liebe Sie

l'amo

Ik hou van u

amo-o

я люблю Вас

jeg elsker du

我爱你

私はあなたを愛しています

love is not about the intersection of two paths
but two persons looking towards the same common path

different ways
different languages
different writings
different expressions
yet
it all has the same one meaning
ILOVEYOU

ps:HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MARK[:

2007-07-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

i give you up once, and twice
it hurts me once, and twice and forever.
why did you always have to rub salt into the wound
add agony on my already broken heart

you've helped me cultivate a habit
to cry over every little thing you do
i never thought to be with you
because it was an impossible dream i knew

all i asked for was that you could notice my existence
dont ask me why i persist in loving
you never know that joy when you cared that tiny bit
the joy when i could know a bit more bout you each day
the happiness of you unknowingly brought
these little things you never noticed
but forever etched in my memory

of course you also never know the agony in loving you
how much tears i shed
how much depression i went thru`
how many nights i thought about you
the hurt that your words inflicted

how do i live without you
sometimes i asked
but i start to wonder
if all these things i did was worth while
for someone who treated me like nothing

your world only revolved only arnd you
ever thought who loved you so
perhaps all this while
we were standing on two parallel lines
that will never, never
have a meeting point

everytime i plucked up my courage
regained my confidence
to love you with all my heart
you effortlessly make me feel as cheap as dirt
as stupid as i possibly could
as idiotic to love someone like you

you are selfish
you are hateful
yet i could find no reasons to not love you

my heart draining out blood
my body losing strength
my soul totally crushed
all that i had i gave it
tell me that i deserve only
tears and heartbreaks?

did i ever tell you the bottomline of everything?
its all because i love you.

2007-07-27T20:14:00.000+08:00

somebody irritated gladys today
gladys is very irritated
gladys says somebody is an irritating specimen.
period.fullstop.

wanted to share my thoughts;
there are two choices in life:

a)love someone?
in this process it is rather tedious.but yet you still find joy in it. because even the simplest thing that the one you love does can make you smile, or of course, make you cry. but on the contrary it could be the most difficult thing to love someone who doesnt even gives a damn about you, when you try to look out for his every action, he finds you irritating, when you smsed him, he wont reply cos he finds it a chore, you tell him what to do, he says you're a busybody. all in all, it doesnt even know of your very existence, but yet, when he utters a word of concern, it makes you day so much brighter, it feels like you're living in heaven. this is love. it's challenging, tough, hits you right in the face, but says sorry for that. isn't it contradicting how love is.

b)be loved?
he showers his love on you, treat you like the angel in heaven, makes you feel that you're the only one who deserves such tender caring love.he'll call you once in an hour, sms you once every ten mins,speak honeyed words and talk the love that he speaks of. goes out with you, holding hands in the public, let the world know that you two are sweetly in love, and finally gives you 999 roses on your anniversary. making you think like you're the princess in the fairytale story who will live happily ever after that with him. love, it can be so sweet, so wonderful, so everlasting.

which will you choose? ask yourself this? x)

men can't live without lying
women can't live without being lied to
thats the very reason why they co-exist
to accomodate to their selfish purposes

2007-07-23T17:58:00.000+08:00

it's been super long since i updated(:

today alan kor send me a new blogskin he promised. so i decided to update a little(:

finally i can touch my laptop once again after it was being put into sleep in my mum's secret hiding place for so long cos she din wan us to use the com till exams were over.

today had a maths test on rel velocity. i practically din noe wad i was doing the whole time. i just...slept thru it? half slept i guessed. i couldnt understand the chapter. many didnt too. oh well. i could do one of the qn cos ah gong got teach me b4 but sadly i din revise that pt. oh well. resigning to fate. i just gave up!

o lvls and prelims coming soon. my class seems to get so tensed up about it, but i guess cos i haven been studying thats why i din feel the stress yet. but i really cant take it lying to be the last few in class again. with me sucking out in maths and sci and yet still be in the triple sci class. whatever the rubbish is that. i heck it. just wanna do well for my exams and get into the course that i wanted. maybe jc? i guess more of poly life suits me...unlike the rest of my classmates who aspires to enter jc.

my maths still cannnot make it as usu and the tchers has high expectations of our class. i din wanna break the lowest record of a certain subject too, esp for a triple sci class. oh whatever pls.
hopefully i can do sthg about it. take care guys and pls take gd care of yaself.this is the second last lap...reaching the ending point sooon.... dont give up!!!!

mugg hard all you guys out dere taking o's! wish you all the best and best of luck. hopefully i get to update real soon. God bless you(:

loves<3

i just love the way of you staring into blank space
love it when you smile
love it when you act stupid
love the forgiveness and sorries

love,
above all,
forgets all the cruelty
all the tears and laughter
bringing back all the memories
remembering only the heart
that swore to love you
and you alone;

2007-06-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay,
Would you stand by me,
let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dancewith me,
And touch my lips with tender love and care
Would you die for me,
would you run with me,
And never look back.

Would you be there to love,
to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that
you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love,
to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always bethe one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there

If I'm away,
would you still think of me?
And wished that you could hold me now.

Would you die for me,
would you run with me, all the way
Would you be there to love,
to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there,
to kiss my pain away.
Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be there,
to kiss my pain away.

Would you be there,for me?

this is what i would ask of you
this is what i would wish of you
but it's all a one sided love
it would be all another fairy tale
with many lies that buries beneath

2007-05-31T23:49:00.001+08:00

does it matter about how i feel
does it matter if i would smile
or that i would shed a tear
deep in my heart
i noe that i am only of use at times
yet even if you tell me flatteriin` lies
i accept it with a contented heart

because thats the only time
my existence is made known to you

perhaps love is all about that
allowing the person you like
to grab hold of your weakness
and make use of it to make a fool out of myself
yet stupidly i allowed you to do so
without a reason

just simply,
out of love

spend my whole week on i dunno what. wasted my time like nobody's business. when i promised mum that i'll half my results at prelims but i'm like so hardworking at slacking? always promise but never fulfill it.midyear sucks like mad. got my report book. deproved like so much. and i've got nothing to say.

at ptm,some tchers mer mum and spoke a little about it. ms lim was rather naggy about it. and ms dianah kept making me to reconsider my decision about me dropping bio. and well, in consideration i guess. dunno how. but managed to survive at ptm without crying when usu i would do so?

anyhow, i am so gonna mugg hard this hols. i noe like what mr quek says: "its make or break", so why not make it? sounds nicer isnt it? not gonna make it just words. tmr is 1 june. shall make it a fresh start...

anyway, HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY KENNETH(: its my dearest brother bdae on 1 june.congratz on being a officially being called a teenager(: jiayous

all the best to all the sec 4 peepz out there. work hard this jun holidays. it will be worth it! trust me! one significant thing to rmb :

-WHAT YOU DO AT 16 WILL AFFECT YOU ALL THE WAY TILL YOU ARE 60-

loves<3

2007-05-13T18:34:00.001+08:00

This post, I dedicate it to my God, my life and myself [:

my life is falling into the sin-confess cycle. seeing my friends and loved ones around me either unsaved or backsliding, its definitely not an encouraging scene. i wish no more for all these things but the flesh is willing yet the spirit's weak. each time i make a decision, its a emotional thing. the next moment i noe it, I'll fail myself again. Whats the point then of commiting the sin and keep asking for forgiveness.

perhaps its time to do some self-reflection, what have I done for the past 16 years of my life, and not wait till mid life and start reflecting back on those past years. That is to ensure no regrets because life will never restart just because you realise you have done something wrong.

its difficult to convey what I wanna tell my world, its tough to take up the responsibility for my generation because I cant even get on the right track with Him in the first place, it truely makes my worship and praise for Him fake from the inside out. I know, He knows that. Yet, how can I save my world before I can save myself from falling into deep sins.

Its rather true, that this world has nothing for me, because what this world has is only hurting to me, and it fails me all the time, and everythg will fall on me. Yet when I hear about the end timez, what can I do besides being scared. arent I a scaredy-cat, yes I admit, I dont have much guts, even to watch horror shows, but am I suppose to say I'm scared to push away all the responsibilities for my generation?

I know I will never walk alone, in this life journey because He promised to be with me. I want the revelation to start from today, though it may be tough from the very beginning but I'll try, and I'll succeed cause I know He has a great plan ahead for me.

This world has nothing for me
I’ll learn to follow You
Rescue me from my deepest sin
For You know my every dirty little secret
Each time I broke Your heart
Each time You forgave me
Don’t leave me alone
Take me along with You
Help me to be brave in this generation of mine
Because there’s nowhere I can go

This words I say to You
I know You know everything unspoken
Yet, I choose to make this promise
Help me in my life journey
Thank You for choosing me
It’s our LOVE PROMISE<3

13 DEC 04’ MY PROMISE
13 MAY 07’ MY RE-MADE PROMISE

Cos I've nothing else to say but Thank You Lord! (:

2007-04-07T11:31:00.000+08:00

i used to think if time could turn back,
i will love to embrace those beautiful memories
but whats those memories when your heart
was never with me
those are just nothing

my naive heart filled with wishes
filled with unrealistic illusions
when i thought that we could start a dialogue
weaving our world with beautiful promises

all i got was my unrequited love
all those memories, thoughts and conversations
were nothing but my monologue

my paper heart now torn and tattered
my soul is strangled
my heart is bleeding
but you couldnt be the least bothered

i wished i hadnt embarked on this journey
perhaps its time to wake up from my dreams
when i thought i could enjoy the sweetest moments
in my deepest sleep
but now i know
its nothing but my death wishes

love so stifling
it chokes
love so deadly
it slays
mercilessly

2007-04-03T20:38:00.000+08:00

i just so wanted to share this day! 030407

its annkhay's 16th bdae! so HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! (: bez wisheeess! :D

seems like i'm the laziest person in class now, must start studying, cant imagine sa1 coming in less than a month. JIAYOU WOR, everyone out dere to all the 4E peeps!

happy? i dunno how to describe. but its just today that will be imprinted in my mind. THANK YOU!

only in my sweetest dreams
that it would occured
for that few moments
+that 40 mins

only if you could promise
to hold on forever & ever.

all these memories will be enough
even if we werent meant to be

beginning till the end,
all i still say
ILOVEYOU! :D

2007-03-28T17:47:00.001+08:00

POST TIME!
super long no update le(: many things have come to past. drill com, the long awaited event. thank God and praise Him cos we got a Silver(: which is very good alrdy cos only 4 gold recipients, thats why counted very good! Good job girls(: dont get upset or what. work hard, and in 2 years time we will clinch the Gold ok!

then beloved ah gong sq was hospitalised! haven seen him since like ages ago can. miss him getting sweets from me(: haha. so ah gong faster come back school ok! 4e3 misses you loads. Get well soon and quick! buy you loads of sweets and chocolates horr(:

obs ppl go le. only come back next week. then the class room like a bit empty also. plus these few days the school undergoing some evaluation thingy, then got some high post people coming to evaluate our school for the autonomous status, which is like totally cool?! haha. dunno la. so anyway, gd luck bbss!

been tests and studies still. tests more often. got back my ca1 results which is a total pile of nonsense, and i cant imagine me going for the o lvls this coming nov with those results in hand. must buck up le, plus sa1 is in 31 days, counting down....

anyhow, been alright all this while,time flies, next week gonna pass down le, to the next nco council(: oh well. old le lah. but thats also the time, which signifies that i should start bucking up and studying for my o's. alright. so all the best for the next nco council, hope you will bring GB to the the next level and clinch more awards for the company! (: all the best to regardless whoever gets what post! this fri at enrolment rehearsal gonna noe(: excited! hope my votes will come true

though its just the special feelings thats between us.
we might not be like any other couples
holding hands, saying our love promise
but its just that nurturing sweet sweet love
thank God for you
and thank you for being part of my life journey
a thousand times, still i'll say
ILOVEYOU!

2007-03-04T01:28:00.000+08:00

been long since i posted.

today went for GB leadership conference. then missed cell grp and service cos the conference ended around 8.30pm. it was a 1-day conference at kuo chuan presbyterian high @bishan. the school is totally BIG!! and the canteen and school environment is totally cool as well! their BB and GB coy all attained GOLD! nice try! how i wished the same for 10th & 53rd too in the years to come? (:

finished common test just. and well, guess what?
three more tests coming right up next week..believe it or not. its not a rest at all. its all part and parcel of sec 4 life, what else can i grumble about but to humble to the books alone? oh well.

next week is last week of school before breaking for the one-week mar holidays. oh well. i knew it wasnt gonna be another holiday for me. but a tough working period. oh well. what can i do? cos Drill Com is jus round the corner. hopefully some last minutes preparation with God's grace will help us attain something in return for the hard work we all put in(: oh well.

next week gonna be busy like crazy. mon-wed is drill practices intensive. then wed-fri are all the tests. tell me how am i gonna study and handle my work together? just hope that God's strength will be my strength to help me pass by this strenous week to come.

the worst thing is that i am so gonna expect BAD RESULTS coming. as expected i guess? but sometimes i just wished my life, everything about my current studies wont be the way that it is now? seems out an outcast in the class that pulls everyone down with my grades. esp the MSG(mean subject grade) that the school expects of my class. the top class. oh well. sometimes i just wonder if i chose the wrong class or was outa of my mind when i made the decision to come to this class that i am in now. i'm having fun with my peers, the fun, joy and laughter each has brought me, but yet my results seems to be the most realistic indicator that I DONT BELONG TO 4E3

2007-02-07T00:41:00.000+08:00

i'm just another busy bee in the sec 4 cohort. who on earth made o lvl a compulsory thing in sec 4? invading the total freedom of a 16yr old. oh well. face up to reality, Gladys. the world doesnt revolve around you. yes, yes. things dont usu go the way you wanted them to be.

today during english class watch some parts of a show: " Confessions of A Teenage Drama Queen" pretty reality show. showing how inspiring a girl can be even at such a young age. thinking if Singapore kids at 16 could have the equal amount of exposure to all this. perhaps all we get exposedto each day is just books and books and more of them. arent they dead? arent we dead? sometimes i just question myself about what is my value of life? things will obviously get better aft all the exams but those times seemed so far-reaching, beyond my reach even. oh well. reality is cruel after all.

[[BEFORE EVERY PROMOTION COMES A TEST]]

i dont wanna step into class each day. i dont wanna step into the school gates each day. it is a fear in my mind. cos i noe that it will be many hours later before i can step out of it again. perhaps even up to 10 hours. oh well. its just scary how long the hours you can indulge in school studying or whatever.

stepping into my class is another form of stress(if anyone knew what i REALLY meant) and yes. it is stressing enough to see those people in my class working so hard. goodness. i can feel the tension rising. alright alright. i concede defeat to O lvls. i admit i'm scared of you! let me go. give me back my freedom pls! just like a bird in a cage each day...

just hope all these will pass by quickly. time flies. true enough(:

i'll learn to tolerate
to be immune to all your hurts
to learn how to smile, baby

could you tell me the secret to your heart
tell me how to capture your soul
tell me anything and everythg under the sun

you're the sweetest thing that occured to me
cos all i know is that i'm madly in love with you

2007-01-22T20:35:00.000+08:00

finally had the time to sit down and blog about my life till now ever since the previous post cos i had like 6 tests last wk. thank God this week only got 1 test cos the rest was cancelled. but many many CHEM tests is coming up for the rest of the weeks.really cant imagine:(

TODAY(220107) i shall rmb it always && forever. cos it was a bad day. not becos of monday blues, nor was it because i had to see mdm yaw first thing in the morning. but becos of some other stuff. ever since the morning. my friends, you should noe why. got SUPER DEPRESSED cos of that. and yupps. my day was spoilt utterly cos of it. oh well. be GUILTY pls! if you know...

nthg much in my life these days except that its really a different life in sec 4. have to get use to it. esp to phy super tough tests which i've really got not much ideas. and i realised that i really dun have much time to study for o lvl. oh well. what can i do. been reading a book called the 'the next big thing' quite ok book. was quite engaged in this book and its sort of a miracle cos i seldom love reading you see. so yupps.

I'M STILL DEPRESSED. && THE CURE IS CHOCOLATES(: PLS DO OFFER ME SOME IF YOU SEE ME AROUND THE CORNER. the best cure is still YOU.

will be busy again these few days. so may not be able to post. but do cont to tagg on my board pls. thanks loads people! encouragement if you do have any!

when i thought i still had you
as the last thing on Earth
that i realised this world
has nothing for me.

when i harboured the sweestest illusion
it became my worst hurts you've given
when i thought i could have never woken up
from a dream that seemed so everlasting
you've choosen to give the best answer
that is the harsh reality

dont ever attempt to lead me on
cos i'm easily misleaded
that one truth is, i
ndeed more hurtful than a thousand lies...

2007-01-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

its been a super long time since i updated cos my mum kept the com away cos sch was restarting then and she din wan us to play too much com. so well. according to ms KE XIN, i've got loads of things to update on. as for the tag replies, i'm sorry guys. too many to reply to huh?

YI CAMP was awesome. had a whole new experience with GOD.although i had some unhappy experiences, but it was all to the past year alrdy. its the new year now and obviously things got so much better beyond my expectation, and it pretty much shocked me. but indeed i really wanna thank MUNKIDD, cos he had been a great pal standing by my side listening to my stories ever since then. really thank you so much guy! i really dunno how to thank you but take care and all the bez for urr JC life! (:
the camp foto was like almost bursting alrdy with the 500 people arnd. goodness gracious! ever imagine if there are 1000 ppl in YI which is the estimated growth of 2007. wahhaa. i dunno what will happen. but thank God for His faithfulness to YI. really.
AND ULTIMATELY, ABRAHAM ROCKS! WE GOT THE CHAMPION TITLE! YAYS! CAUSE WE ARE ABRAHAM, A IS FOR ABRAHAM! WEES~

JUST KEEP IT;KEEP THE FAITH!

and NEW YEAR 2007 CAME and WENT!
ok, started school. had a boring first day introducing and those admin stuff.
followed by another day of amazing race which was truely tiring cos we ran arnd like siao.
MY TEAM WAS HI-8! CHECK IT OUT:D
SUPER SIAO DE
consisted of:
-me
-zhihao
-meiping
-shuyan
-kerby
-mark
-hon cheong
-weng rong

although we din win anythg but then it was an awesome day! :D thank you guys! you've been a great bunch!
we were all wearing class tee the day before and we look like one whole bunch of SUNKIST ORANGES!

then came swimming carnival,wondering if all good things come together, after one whole day shouting and cheering,which initially the response was like super bad, our class,4E3, the known-to-be-GEEK-class got the CHAMPION TITLE! believe it or not! wows!!! i was amazed TOTALLY PLEASE:DD THANK YOU SO MUCH PEOPLE, REGARDLESS WHETHER YOU TOOK PART OR CHEERED ALONG;
AND NOT FORGETTING OUR SMALL DIRTY TRICKS TO CHEER FOR THE VARIOUS CLASSES AND THE REASONS BEHIND IT!

p;s: i LOVE soft toy aeroplane<33>

hope all is going well for you guys out dere in 2007, let it not be another year just passing by, but hope for great things and acheive them! let it be a year of no regrets, conquer it and NOT FEAR IT!
JUST DO IT!
take care and all the bez guys in wadeva you all do! be it wherever you are, taking national exams or not, do your bez in your studies and life!

i dunno when i can update again. but GOOD LUCK && GOD BLESS!

with love,
GLADYS:D

MEMORIES OF MISSION TRIP! (:

2006-12-18T04:17:00.000+08:00

SOME MEMORIES OF MISSION TRIP: THATS MY TEAM! UDON THANI TEAM 4! ALWAYS && FOREVER!:D
ANOTHER GROUP FOTO! CANT REALLY SEE ME!(P.S: LOOK AT ALEX!,MOST RIGHT)
- MEMORIES; THOSE PRECIOUS MOMENTS- MY GANG DURING MT! (:
P.A.P PIGGY ACTION PARTY! THATS THE 3 OF US! :D I'M THE FOUNDER!&& THERE'S ZHIWEI AKA ZHUZHU && MUNKIDD (:

WILL UPLOAD MORE NEXT TIME ROUND!
BELOW STILL GOT POST. CONT READING! HAHA:D DUN MISS IT OUT! (:

2006-12-18T02:39:00.000+08:00

its YI camp le:D

well well. i wun be home for 4 days le):
also wont post for the 4 days to come. dont miss me alrights.
haha:D

i'm expecting the camp speaker right now. mr paul!
wonder how he looks like. he is ps dave's boss lehs.
is he very old and talks very slow?(oh no!)
or will he be like ps dave. :D
hmmms. wonders wonders.
and the answer will be out tmr! :D wees~~~

and the hyped up-ness is coming!
in yuting's grp; in liang zhi and vivian's tribe!
wee hees~ hopefully we will win the BEST TRIBE under them!
our tribe called ABRAHAM! tribe colour is ORANGE!
so cool larh! tmr have to report in ORANGE!

kinda of dun expect YI CAMP to be the same as the years before.
so i'm expecting LOADS LOADS LOADS OF 100% HYPED UP FUN!
alrights(: take care people. possible join us nxt year. its fun to be in this annual FUN camp! :D
and i'm expecting CAMP TEE also(:
JUST KEEP IT! KEEP THE FAITH! :D

will do the post-camp blogging when i come back again! :D
take care people! :D

2006-12-16T00:48:00.000+08:00

SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING!

I LOVE SHOPPING PLS!

SHOPPING SPREE CRAZY MOOD GIRL!

went for fancy drill mtg this morning. then after that went to town to SHOP! wees~ was with peiling,dara && xinqi.yupps(: miss my gang loads this holidays. din really see them much. but nvm, xmas celeb will come soon on xmas eve! all will be dere! so YAYYYSSSSS:D

bought a STRIPED SHIRT at far east if i not wrong -.-" or was it heerens? anyway i proclaim that I'M IN LOVE WITH STRIPES! not because of that shirt. but back in thailand, i just started that crazy obsession with it le(: wees~~

pai seh lar. was stopping at this traffic light then suddenly i sensed sthg wrong! my shoe was SPOILT! shld have seen how suay i was! dragging the spoilt shoe arnd... and i think i am cursed by heerens cos this 2nd time i go, i have to buy new shoe AGAIN! the other time was when i was drenched cos i went under the rain and had to buy a new pair of flip flops now my shoe just spoilt b4 i reached heerens. goodness gracious pls! :( in the end i din buy any new shoes there. cos i din really like those. and then i just dragged the shoes all the way. ppl might think i am some PAI KAH(crippled!) or sthg i think. just looking at the way i walked. met my mum after that at her work place. dragged my SPOILT shoes all the way till jurong east. believe it? then bought a new pair there. mum bought a new suit of clothes for work. and i bought a new pair of pants!
SHOPPING AGAIN!

i think i have to go SHOPPING AGAIN! cos xmas bash coming soon. if can wear retro code, have to go buy and stuff. then still have to buy the girt for gift xchange at the party we having :D so yupps MORE SHOPPING!!! ~~~ :D:D

SCRAM!
who asked you to come into my life uninvited?
messing up my thoughts
changing the pace of my life

it takes time to realise that your heart had alrdy been taken
it is then too late to stop loving you
its just a torture
especially when its YOU of all people! =(

2006-12-15T01:10:00.000+08:00

hmmms. firstly:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EWEN!
sheng ri kuai le wor! although cant get to celebrate with you on ya bdae but u noe I LOVE YOU! haha. best wishes and may God continue to bless you in His own ways! jia yous and grow up le lar! haha:D u've been a great friend to me, thank you so much dearest! (:

well well. so long no update le. cos i really lazy to do so. nxt wk is YI camp le. (: got 4 days out of home again.
but the weird thing is that i cant really seek the excitement to go for the camp like i usu do. hais. i guess there's the reason behind it which only adora understands. :( i really wanna be hyped up for the camp and start preparing myself for this annual event which is like super great and wonderful :D but why? why i just cant? someone just tell me? :(

everythg in my life is just nort wrong. ever since then....
it was never placed right again... i din wished to be affected...but it really made an adverse impact on my life.
and it also made me reconsider about a lot of things. but why of all things is it that? well. i really pondered why God gave me such a hurdle to cross at this point of my life..

i wished i could be back to square one//
where nthg had actually happened//
when my life was just contented with what i had//

only if my heart could have only ONE resounding image
only if my hearts longs for that ONE person
only if love could be that simple
only if everythg was back to square one

everythg was...ONLY IF....